h3. h3. h3.
how sad.. when did it even start? occasional glancing? more than often coincidences? wadeva..wadeva. maybe she was rite. haiz.. she was.. after all. dun u tink so spousey? *winkz* fine.. im not feeling so good now. h3. wad did he do? spousey.. will tell you ba. dunno he would even DARE to do tht. DIDNT IMAGINE. nononono.

=/
ignoromous.. haha.
dunno how its spelt. jus noe mrs teo uses it lots. lots. lots.

nvm. read the to kill a mockingbird for the 2nd time in this week?! must familiarize.. still cant understand the story well.. but its really very thrilling.. harper lee is sucha GOOD riter. okok wadeva.

had a tok wif spousey. maybe laopo is nicer ba.. spousey.. laopo.. spousey.. okok wadeva. we agree on smth the laopos/spousey hav in common. we're currently __________. hahaz. the laopos/spousey tink alike.. yo.

yupp, so i went maple.. and den tht hawkblahblah sent like 10 over invitations to me. wahlao. i everytime deny. ok.. fine, cannot ignore him.. he's REALLY irritating. so i answered..
hawkblah: oi.
bad: wad?!?!
hawk: why u delete me?
bad: coz u go and scold my jie and mei!!!
hawk: wad?!?! its true tht they are ______ mah.
bad: wadeva lah. wadeva ><"""""""""
hawk: ****.. so u say u wanna train me.
bad: i SAID ITS NOT ME. MY BRO.
hawk: wtf lah. u tink i believ u. =,=
bad: u dun not my prob rite?
hawk: wat the **** u and ur frenz are like *****es.
bad: den why tok to me? not like i wan to tok to u.
hawk: LAME. train me. LIAR.
bad: FINE. u dun believ lor. not my prob.
hawk: u and ur "jie" and "mei" all ****ers de. jus **** off and go _______ *censored*
bad: wahlao. stop insulting.
hawk: fine lor. train me. dun be a LIAR
bad: i din say i would
hawk: SO DID ****er. go _______
bad: dun believ i cant do anyting.
i quit out.
i've NEVER met a worse boy than HIM. makes me wanna go bash and bash his face again and again.. how can he insult ppl until so wad de..
finally couldnt train anymore.. he kept irritating me..

haha.. obsessed wif maple =O

jus spent my whole 4 hours playing maple? wah.. met the boy hu was crapping bout rachel.. and den rachel use my acc scold him and i use her acc train her.. lols only 2% liddat. wahlao.. he very wad leh..den when rachel go offline, say i can play my account, my jie -pinkpandagal- was defending me. that idiot hawk blah go and call her ***** leh.. ask her go and suck.. ermz.. nvm.. too disgusting ><"''" wahlao.. so in the end, i delete him off buddy lor.. dunno why bro add him.. call ppl noob when he even NOOB-IER. CRAP lah. haha.. den train wif my jie.. looking for tobi. and really, i got tobi!! omg. my dit acc can get tobi.. lol dit-sin mah. haha.. my bro says im evil.. u noe why? i tricked this noob into spending more than he should hav.. like 200k more.. hahaha.. not my prob mah. you see, a starlight is like 100k.. but den i fake fake, tell him it cost 200k, but for him i discount 160k. haha.. den later discount down to 140k.. den he say he got 90k exactly ><""""" hu believe de?!?! lol.. can see he wanted it alot.. so i tel him a few luck crystal ores and ores can trade lor.. i tot he giv 1 luck crystal {50k} and 2 or 3 diamond/ black crystal.. but then he gave 3 luck crystal ores and 5 diamond ores AND one free fame!! YAYYYY!! i made a good sale.. muahahaha.. 200k gone.

okok.. wadeva.. toking too much bout maple liao.. dunno wad to say though. the sc camp was so fun.. but ppl dun pin ur hopes on me.. i KNOW i won't get in. when they say we shud say wad strengths we had [and be thick-skinned] i kept my mouth shut.. why? coz i got NO STRENGTHS ATALL. okok.. thts it.. no strengths at all.. plus they said mus be able to cope wif the duties, work, piano, cca.. i dun tink can de lor.. so jus shuddup lor. hahahahahahaa =D

jus got back from the sc camp.
not going to giv myself false hopes.
i KNOW im not going to get in.
but it was still FUN. FUN. FUN <3

in my group. girls first.
corrine. oh yeah!! if dun hav corrine..
i wouldnt know wad to do.. (be lonely)
ting wei.. she's real nice
serene. she's so smart.. head prefect.
den her art so nice.. anime draw so nice.
amanda. really quiet.. but nice.
jethro..leon.. kok wee.. aiya.
cant really rmb names well..
and our group leader was zhixin.
her enthu level is so high.
and she doesnt care wad ppl tink bout her.
and chenjun? o.0 he's quite nice.

YAY!! den me and ada slept in the same bunk..
i hav superpowers after all. *haha*
pity no jinni there.. yupps..

ok.. tt day.. and the day b4, my sms BAO le.
laopo smsing me, jinni smsing me.. haha.
sms really wanna burst le. okok =D

den i was going to go at 2.55..
den ada complained she was there early..
at 1.30!??!?! i went at 2.30.
den went library, borrowed her jin tian yi,
crapped ard wif the librarian

dun really rmb anymore..
cheering..hate cheering.. den got the
"hei.. shan shang liu shui.." blahblah ><"
okfine.. i didnt understand a single bit.
den dance. dance was FAST.
okok.. i gave up. its like 10 times faster den orientation one?!?!

haha.. den went dinner at simpang bedok..
prata.. eeeyer.. so fattening.
only one prata for dinner, and coke.. hahas.

nightgames was the "FUNNEST"
it was like scary.. made me freak out at the court.
its like, we're supposed to piece together a story?
10 stations.. dun rmb all.. ohyeah.
when we were walking [briskly] behind the dnt room,
two ppl burst out from the door..
they really burst my eardrums screaming:
"WHY ARE U STILL HERE?!?! GET OUT OF HERE!!"
i gave them laopo's trademark face ><"
den atop the main school hall, the walk up there..
it was like.. so scary. everytime scared smth would burst out at us.
me and corrine took the lead.
"aiya! boys come first lah!"
the boy purposely crap back =.="
"nvmnvm.." "its ok.. u very kind.."
pictures of shutter.. the girl, wif the eyes all.. wait, its too gross to say.
okok..so they dowan lead.. then the next station,
we make the boys go first [four boys]
2 at the back, 2 in the front..
den the 2 boys from the front gradually moved..
to the BACK ><""""""
[DIAO]
it was so fun.. fun and tiring and thrilling.

interview le..
i didn't tok much..
jia you all would-be sc's ><"

its so fun.. but im like so
#1 dirty
#2 tired
#3 com-crazy

my goals were to:
#1 eat ALOT
#2 bathe thoroughly
#sleep
#4 COM!!!!

straight away ate two big bowls of macaroni,
bathed.. den went slp..
wanted to slp only 2 hours?
but ended up slping 5 hours ><"
miss my sleep huh?
well, it was like 2.30 and i was like slpy..
and ada was still toking lively ><"""""!!
[perhaps she's hyper active]
it was a gr8 experience..
=D back to hw ba..

okok..mus blog for my life before i go for the camp.

[status: toking crap as usual]

now YOU LOOK HERE. yes YOU.
you've changed. you've really changed.
i miss the old you. can u find urself?
i can't. i really can't. and im about to giv up.

[if u tink its u, bt not sure, dun asume D:]

finefine. jus mapled.
HATE the dc-ing.
right..
so my com dc-ed like 7 times in 1/2 an hour.
so can't play maple.. very bored now.

LOL
my mum's crazy over da chang jin.
wads it bout? a female doctor??
and some "prince charming"..
o.0 DIDN't UNDERSTAND

well, i liked the part when the woman..
dropped down the cliff..
trying to clutch on to a ribbon..
* sadist me *

okokfine. fine.
i shall seriously stop crapping.

DAMN

went mapling.
omg. ludi. ludi.
LUDI IS COOL.

yesh it is.
pq: for lvl 35 to 50
do ya noe how much i miss pq?
a whole new world!!
OMG. omg. OMG.

pity.
when there's good, there's bad.
fine. so the stupid internet got prob.
keep on disconnecting.
i go on the boat [80k] disconnect.
WTH?!?! didn't care.
took another boat.
oh great! waited 1 hour for 2 boats.

den.. omg. i reached.
IM A LUDI.
ok.. wadeva.
was like trying to get into the city.
WTH? lag.lag.lag.lag.
lag.lag.lag.lag. {DISCONNECT}
argh!!!!!!
stupid internet.

okok.. wadeva.
everyone's changed.
my laopo changed.
she became more sad.
amanda bb changed.
she's more......umm,sad.
hosy changed, me changed,
nick changed, haizhaizhaiz.

can't help man.
omg. i wan go back ludi.
BUT MY COM LAG.

let me jus put my creative juices.
-poweron-
so tt i can tink wad to buy 4 miss madhu.

jus had a nice tok wif my laopo and amanda.
similarity: experiencing more and more problems.
difference [btw me and dem]: i hav learnt to look past it.
*winkz*
more and more problems.
laopo's revolving around * and ** and ***
amanda revolving around ***

awww.. my two good frenz so sad.
k.. advice?
* and ** ish LIFE.
life goes around in weird weird ways.
if u can't interfere, DON'T.
lets jus be bystanders. lets jus leave ppl to their life's.
occassional advice.. well yes.
keep it as ADVICE. never more.

***
manda.. cheeries.
ur right. *** off.
i envy u de lehx..
u can get out of probs so easily..
plus u nv let them bother you.

[DON'T]

life's a big problem.
WE LEARN.

yay. tml=pe!!!
WAHAHAHA!

learn to look forward to things that u lyk.
NOT LIKE CHINESE ='(
b-ball den (:

lemme jus post my results
for ppl to seriously laugh at it.

english
compre: 11/20
[jus passed..disappointed]
summary: 14/20
compo: 25/30
[cher cancelled the 27 beside it!! argh!!]
brochure thing: 25/30
total: 75/100 {A1}

chinese
compo: 35/60
si han: 12/20
paper: 70/120
total: 59/100 {C5}
[oosh pathetic]

maths
part 1: 30/50
part two: 27/50
total: 57/100 {C5}

science
part 1: 22/30
part 2: 14/40
part 3: 15/30
total: 50/100 {C6}
[eeyer. shud be lah]

elit
total: 56/70 {A1}
[80% ok rite?]

geog
mcq: 15/20
world map:3.5/7
map skills: 12/13
ques 1: 16/20
ques 2: 17.5/20
ques 3: 17.5/20
total: 81.5/100 {A1}

music
total: 38/50 {A1}
[eeyer. music hu cares de?]

okok.. everyone laff now.
my results are h o r r i b l e.
worse thing is those ppl going round finding out ppl's marks.
find out urs oredi not satisfied ah?
still go and find others.

like when i got back my science,
i was like crying wif my back towards **.
she so wad lah, still come and ask me.
ppl.. jus a reminder, dun ask for my marks k?
chances is tt my marks will be terrible.

oosh.

i can't believ tt i played from 10 to 5 ytd.
am i sick?
10 to 5, thats 7 hours straight.
no lunch.. didn't feel like it.
was veri bored.

am vry bored now.
currently perfecting my language.
HEEZ. wif my laopo.
[i am NOT les. dun xiang wai.]
for eg: the beautiful language goes.
i lurrrvve euu laopo.

oosh.
dunwan to go to skl.
wanna slp in. wanna rest.
dun feel like school.
maths results. lit results.

was planning to go watch poseidon today.
but sadly, im sick
):

great.
den i wanna go pe on wednesday.
basketball yeah?
not again. dun tink i can.
argh.

den i died during maple.
due to LAG.
didn't feel like training anymore.

if only u knew how bad it could get.

maybe.. yes.
seeing past the imperfections is impt.

gave my terrible papers to my mum.
placed my geog on top..
best subject mah.. haha
den chinese..
den science..
den english..

expected to get a scolding.
like "see lah! everytime go chat or maple, now, see lah! marks all become liddat!"
well, she didn't. its like she jus encouraged me.

boo-hoo.
dun like tt.

o.o miss madhu is going away?
awwwwww.. how sad!! miss madhu dun go!!
miss madhu is like the best cher lor.. like mrs teo. haha.
will miss her.

two-faced girl!
in front of chers, she's sweet as sugar.
in front of frens, she's showing off.
den when ada cried, ** told her to move away, leave ada alone.
0.o? she didn't. like, she jus ignored her,
continue "dun cry, dun cry ada.."
plus she doesn't know her voice carries?
tt made ada sob even louder, if my ears are working alright.

and den later, she said "dun cry ada, u make me cry oso."
haiz.. mus be she got very little water, she's desperately trying to squeeze out some tears.

comical. =) very comical =D

did u noe im transparent?
0.o
i found out today.

great.
jus great.

bac to a normal monday.
went to skl tinking,
"OMG. i really wan to go to skl.
i nid to tok to hosy."
i come bac tinking.
"OMG. i really dowan to go to skl.
i jus wanna be SICK and dun go."

elang
miss madhu came in late.
me and hosy were toking.
we tink she was ******.
bt we dun really noe.

chinese
li lao shi, as usual, didnt stop.
us from working.
she assigned us a compo to do.
den she say mus put the desks bac properly.
to the rows.

SEL
mr lim gave bac the part 1 paper.
terrigible, horrigible, vegetable,
as quoted from rachie.
30/50.
at least didn't fail.
but lost to hanyang by 1 mark.
and * by 1 mark.
P a T h E t I c

science
another free period.
how nice.
me and jeewah and alvina were toking..
bout maple yeah?

den came home.
and went on9.
*** came and told me a lot of crap
nvm.

nothing is perfect.
NOTHING is.

dats the way it is.
and i live with it.

simple word.
fine fine.
i'll stop tokin bout depressin stuff.
i'll stop murdering u.

[bt if vonney still continues her crap,
i SHALL become a murderer.
a highly enthu one at that.]

anyway.. oh yeah.
why don u try to guess wad G means?

great?
guess?
gas?

nonono.. im kidding u.

thanks to her,
yeppz, thanks to u girl,
*smiles*
i know now.

i won't be put down by these stuff.
NO I WON'T.
yippee?
i giv vonney and anon no. 2 more work.

come on..
lets jus imitate smth.
bring it on.

haha!! (:
after all,
vonney and anon enjoy becoming made a sport.
(:

i rather enjoy ur presence.

if there's one time to be hard-hearted, its now.

another boring day.

briefly entertained by vonney.
0.o
perhaps u're expecting me to be pissed,
sad, or go mad,
NOPE. i won't.
u're jus hiding behind names.
shud i even acknowledge ur presence?

no.

but i shud tel u.. u're hilarious.
LOLing.

perhaps smth went rong.
maybe.. maybe.

tts all i say now.

Nobody knows who i really am.
Maybe they just dun care.
Ive never felt this empty before.
And if i ever need someone to come along,
who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong?

miss the days when laughter came easily..
im boring u.

went to trl today.

wadda mess.

firstly, the whole library relocated all the books.
i was like running up and down finding the teenage section.
=P
took a whole 1/2 an hour to find it.

den the whole section seemed a lot smaller.
=(

ran into dance senior.
well, i saw her.
she didn't.
good.
coz i was running away from her.
xD

then spent like 2hours there reading..
blahblah.

0.o
1/2 an hour.
running UP and DOWN.
jus looking for a section whic was in front of my eyes.

am i getting blind?

argh.

more and more weird dreams.
woke up crying
den screaming.
den laffing.

i must be mad.

played maple.
50% in one day.
yepps, if train hard tml, prob can lvl up.
2 days lvl up once. YAY.
(:

anon.
megann.
vonney or wadeva.

im fed up of u.
serious.
can't u just use ur real name?!
pure cowardice.
how u hide behind names..

jus use ur real name

i've been thru alot recently.
i can take it.

[i tink]

no more anons.. please?

dreams.
a part of our subconscious.
whether we dread it or whether we expect it.

some dreams go out awry.
some end up beautifully.

a fictional part of our mind.

just like the dream i had.
u wan to know how scary it was?
not ghosts, phantoms or spectres.
not supernatural beings.
beings in the flesh. real ones.

wish it was GHOSTS, SPECTRES, WRAITHS wadeva.
wish it was that.

its just my imagination.
subconscious?

i fear it might come true.
please don't..

dreams.
feeling terrible now.
all-time low.

sorry ***
was just too pissed.
shudn't hav taken it out on u.
so sorry.

not even maple can cheer me up.
=(

the friendships.
the troubles.
how bad my school standard is.
how i'm going to fail my piano exam.
that dumb piano concert.
how im losing another 2 frenz in piano.
just can't help feeling terrible.

terrible hollow feeling.
whr's the person i nid to tok to?

maybe going reading will cheer me up?
lol. lame.

wish to be bac in skl.
would hav REALLY welcomed a long break.
but now, i wish to be bac in skl.
i wish to be bac in the PAST.
i jus nid someone to realy tok to.

whr's that person?
treasure ur frenz, u jus hav the best ones..
u never know when they're gone.

ironic.
how pp still put anon even tho i told them not to.
0.o

.a run through the dictionary.

DRAMA.
nv thot i would know this word.
nv thot i would experience it.
nv thot that it would came true for me.

FRENZ
sounds seriously foreign to me.
serious?

BIAS
that sounds familar.
[and that was the word anon. =P]

FACADE
well, seriously..

TERRIBLE
yes.
life's terrible.
ahs life is terrible.
piano life is terrible.
life's terrible.

CONFUSED
tts something i'm feeling.
its not nice.
i don noe whr to turn to,
don noe hu to tell,
don noe wad to do.
basically HELPLESSNESS.

WISHES
doesn't everyone want this?
we wish to hav this..and that..and this..
but when the time comes, it doesn't seem all tt impt.

PROBLEMS
life's made up of problems.
life's a bed of THORNS.
life is terrible.
problems and more problems.

nid jus someone to TALK TO.
someone hu understands.
someone hu cares.
someone hu truly wans to help.
right no,
N O O N E.

LOLing?
well, tts me for u.

GRRS
hate toking to walls.

was going to maple yeah?
in de end, didnt feel like it.
jus blasting music [lol]..

and tinking it over..
confused.
NVMs.
where are u hosy?!?!
i seriously nid to tok to u.

NVMs.
maybe shudnt hav let her interoggate me after all.
it does hav a bad side rubbing off me.
*arghs*

NID someone to tok to.
NID a shoulder to cry on.
=D

broke the world's record
XD
kidding.
i hav been on the com from 10 to 6.30

CALCULATE TT: tts 8 hrs 30 mins
lol~
jus a ting to distract myself.

den died in maple
lost 6%
at first was pissed coz due to com lag
den i tot:
"if im too bz being pissed wif everyting else,
i'll be a wreck.
nono. i mus like stop being pissed."
LOL.

mm-hmm.
me and * are toking again!!
all for ya.. hosy.. tanks a lot!!

imma sadist
saddistified ol' me.
LOLing.

haiz.. saw a couple of ppl quarreling in maple.
they were like "IDIOT!"
"STUPID!"
"PREACHER!"
etc etc.
lol.. tts like lame >.-

den it struck me how things hav taken a turn for the worse.
if we were all playing maple,
den we would be like hurling abuses at pp right and left.
sighs.

sadistified.
wonder wad wld happen if i go ahead of 6.30.
mayb i'll die a terrible death..

argh..taggie still cnt tag.
NVMs.. i shall say here den.
lets jus all stop quarelling.
0.o
and megann, i dunno hu u are, and i dun particularly care anymore k? [at least u didn't use anon LOLX] lets jus call it a TRUCE. tank u. bye.
=D kidding kidding.