there's no world outside;

5:59 AM

yr getting ~~fucking~~ desperate.

prolly i flunked my piano..
which i think i did.
which is like fuckitfuckitfuckit..

i fell asleep while trying to do my revision for geog.
which is funny, coz maths keeps me awake, while chinese, geog and science put me to boredom & sleep.
zz well whatever, i kinda like geog, heehee :D

tmrws the homecons thing, cant drag anymore w ms ng, nt tht she'll let us.
&ohshit prolly we're going to impromptu again.
how fun..

my life needs some more excitement, it needs some livening up.
c'mon show me all yr intellect, and tag, spam, and swear.
tag, COZ YOU WANT TO.
blablabla.

need me to chuck evrything in yr face before you even believe it.
i looked for something which could distinguish me with last year, which would make me familiar. yet, i found nothing at all. i saw.
a cold, hard stranger.

5:32 AM

councillors are human, bloody hell.
go and compare yrself t th Higher Authorites, snce yr so bloody high up there.
i bet they never made a mistake in their whole wide life, always has their shirt tucked up to theirstomach, their socks high up until duno where, never ever broke a single rule, never did anything that went against their consience.
blabla, doesnt it get boring.

how childish tht anon is, mine you im nt targeting evry one of the sec1s, only a particular lovey group :D
i know what i shall do tmrw, when i go to school.

i shall pull my socks up to my knees.
i shall lengthn my skirt so it resembles a wedding gown.
i shall not sleep in class, i will pay attention & become like our model student- faris! :D
i will refrain from using vulgarities, and use shoot and some old 1990 words instead.
i shall.. change my mind, i shall not do all that.
coz just look at what yr are expecting.
aw man, shakes head* sorry, i cant do it.

comeon, spam, tag, shout, swear.
point the middle finger, give me the dirty looks, the sour smile.
look at me like im some alien landed on earth.
do it. do it. :D
ill be happy to play along(x

1:50 AM

deviantart pictures are cool. yes, so pretty. like my dearest mama css :D or so she alw calls herself. haha.

do you want me to tell you straight in your face?

i'd prefer not, but if worse comes to worst, i will.

coz i can, and i will.

12:53 AM

I just cant decide whether your fact or fiction

idecided.fiction.

lols, i declare tht this image is FUNNNNNNY haha.

cream, silk, satin. lols. on guys.. cool.

sundays are busy, busy, busy.

been having tuition for 5 hours straight, boy im proud of myself..

for sleeping wif my eyes open 50% of the time.

shits! i nevr really cared for midyears anyw.

been looking back alot on my photos(:

coz i need my babyphotos for tab.

i look muchmuch cuter than haha.

childhood was cool.
morefun,lessworries,NOTHINGtworry.

ohyes, having piano tuition later.

results are coming. :/

haha,well fun, imdead.

x) i wont jump or anything. or play tictactoe.

but, i break promises easily too man. manytimes.

&i wont be so retarded to JUMP. -.-

butwell,irunawayalot

shoots.

my geog revision is STILL on globalwarming.

which is like.

.....

&im still takin' my own time.

speakin, i want t go bac to ytd.

which was cool.(:

where ppl gave u th look and stupid "sorrayes" and retarded HLmilk and suaning.

i had a much better day ytd, thank you very much.

sadly.

Don't want to speak in case it comes out wrong

Don't want to blink cause in that second you could be gone

I need a twist to help me turn, turn this story around

I need a bridge to cross this dangerous ground

4:26 AM

when forever was never. :D
sorry, i just cant do it ):

life is screwed, been learning my geog.
i couldnt fucking concentrate & took 1 hr for 1 page, when nothing went in at all.
sorry, nothingnothingnothing you say cn change it.
ohfishballz (:

im sick of this fake world, where everyone smiles sweetly and once yr back is turned, points the middle finger, or mouth fuck.
how screwed, how meaningless.
makes me wonder where everyone's conscience is..

i'd rather have myself, than everyone.
i'd rather be on my own.
i'd rather keep stuff t myself
i'd rather stop interfering.
i'd rather be my own keeper
i'd rather be selfish, than be helpful, and get pissed.
i'd rather be quiet, than open my mouth & interrupt lessons
i'd rather do work than go out with friends.
i'd rather be sian, get people telling me t stop being sian, or get people fuckingly pissed, than even pretend to be high, when im not.
i'd rather be an introvert.

1:50 AM

'coz i got you.
t keep me alive & sane.

1. Do you worry about the future?
like getting a job? er getting married? lol. who cares.

2. Do you sometimes have trouble falling asleep.
heh no, i sleep alot (:

3.Do you often reach for a drink or tranquilizer in order to reduce tension?
coke counted? (x

4. Do you become irritated over basically insignificant matters?
yes. what seems insignificant and without meaning t others matter alot t me, is that telling something? hah

5. Do you ahve less energy than you seem to need or would like to have?
T.Ti sleep so much, and sleep in class too. &i sleep during cca, and during evrything. i sleeeeeeeep ;D

6. Do you have too many things to do and not enough time to do them.
no. time can be managed.

7. Do you ahve headaches or stomach problems?
no lol. coz got sleep lol.

8. Do you feel pressured to accomplish or get things done?
yeah, i guess, for myes. even though evryone think i dont giv a damn, which is how i like it for people t see me in this eye :D
9. Are you very concerned about being well-liked or successful?
no who cares about popularity. i'd rather just have a couple of good friends who are true & sincere nt fucking fake & always running around telling tales, hello.

10. Do you perform well enough in life to satisfy yourself?
no, i missed that 70 for english & i need a 27/30 for my compo.

11. Do you get satisfaction from the small joys or simple pleasures in life?
yes of coz(:

12. Are you able to really relax and have fun.
sleep is fun(: dont underrate it haha.

shit im feeling bored, stressed, and pissed ohmans.
geography is fun, when you get yr mind focused.
i managed globalwarming in 1hr45mins(:
though i sure forgt evrythin hahaha.

i realised i've been blocking everyone out.even him.
IPC, mummy, we, &whoever sorry.
dont you agree this will help. help to ease the pain, the burden, the thoughts, the merciless enslaught of troubles.
whocares, i think it'll help.
sorry, i dont have anyone now, no matter what evryone tells me.
easethedullache,inmyheart.
maybe one day i might want all of yr back.
but i know i cant have my cake & eat it.
ill walk this path ALONE.
coz im nt what evryone thinks i am, insecure & givin up easily.
oh, i don really care wht people tink.

sorry, im going to continue blocking everyone out.
till someone comes,&helps me.
helps me, out of this endless walk.
will it be you?

12:21 AM

she's like so, whatever.

i hope blogger wont fail again like ytd, fishball.
when i typed and typed and suddenly the whole freakin' computer just crashed damnit.

friday was a stupid day, coz lessons were stupid & boring.
bloodybloodycrap, someone please kill me *.
maths was fun, coz mr chan is cute.
&EVIL! :D haha.
i want t be a maths teacher next time, i bet i can make it! (:
&gracia cn come along wif me!
maths was fun..
coz maths takes ur mind off stuff.
english was stupid la.
i got back th compre test & got 34/50.
damn disappointed, din even reach a 70.
bloodycrap!
mrs jain asked me move bac to my place, so i did.
my introvert seat at the bac to sleep, dream & slack.
blabla.
chinese was borng, me & gracia were talking bout food.
gracia is a big greeeeedy pig :D
well yeah, sunli was right again. when she was freakin' pissed wif me & gracia & wenqi.
o.o yeah.. when she was NOT picking on us -.-
when one is pissed, its always the truth tht comes out.
went wif shipei t my house do work, ahh fun :D
x) she gets super vip treatment & she don like it. haha.

thr was one day when me & glen & shipei went down t 85.
&drank tht disgusting bubbletea.
&jolyn, jiahao & sheryl joined us.
&me & glen pretended t do smthing behind th wall. :D
&some stupid ahgong ahma actually believed it
so, whatever.
-.-

went t cafecartel (:
ohitwasfreakin'funs! :D
but im like brokeeee
T_T

today was fun.
HLmilk, kai1 men2 jian4 shan1, xin1 jing1 rou4 tiao4, brownian motion.
hey, thts damn coooool:D
was doing stage duty wif glenchua, we need t shut ourselves up first.
dragged zhouyang up t do duty wif us, &bullied him.x)
sec4s th most fun t do wif lor..
so noisy, den evrytime talktalktalktalktalk..
nt scared talktalktalk den go exam cnt talk anymore?
people are taking an exam, damnit?
no selfdiscipline,duno whthr is sec4s or p6 luhs..
bueno + timeout = loves! :D
went wif shipei t eat at kfc.
she got int one of her crazy stupid laughing fits..
haha, discovered * really got alot of mozzys, cockroaches, blabla & bla.

fakefakefakefakefake.
im like smiling laughing highing crapping on the outside, inside i just dont feel like it.
lols, makes sense?
we'll have pretense when all else is lost, fake smiles going around, backstabbing, rumours, and fake "comments".

bloody fuck, im trying to patch it up between * and you.
&fine you dont even want to say, im tht kind t go ard spreading some shit rumour?
who the hell cares?
i dont fucking care.

i still dont get why im going ard being so fucking extra-ed.
every single time you get some fucking problem, you fucking get me t go online.
and fuck tell me when hav i nt tried t help u?
fine, if you dun wan me to say, i fucking wont!
if you dun wan t telme, i dun fucking get why im even fucking caring anw.

fuck this is what it takes to h-e-l-p.
fuck i dont want t help anymore.

it's not only you, it's everyone.
this is how everyone shows their wonderful care to me:D
fucking scold, fucking get pissed, fucking ap, fucking dao, fucking cold.
FINE!
&one minute aft tht, they're being nice, giving all those sugary smiles, telling me nt t get pissed, tellin me they're sorry, telling me all the shit i dont even want to listen t at all.

cant they pleeeeeease just shutup leave me alone & stop trying?
time alone. thats wht i need.
is it that hard?

urgh *, im nt insecure.
i know what i want, i know what i can do t get it.
which is why im withdrawing myself.
shit, im damn pissed.
talktalktalk all the shit tht you want, dont ever call me, dont ever talk t me, dont ever expect me t go online when yr feeling down, coz i wont anymore.

5:57 AM

welcome to a world were people talk about each other & everyone lies everyone trys to be something they're not, nobody can keep a secret for their life & friendships that lasted years are broken. it's called life.

i think mommy & IPC people will agree with me on this.

good lor, you win liao le lor.
你赢了lor.
you pro lor.
so damn pro can, i also admit can..

i hope your happy((:
happy with what you got.
happy with th results, you were expecting..
with nothing at all ^^
[edit]
some people are just so unreasonable. i mean like haha, some people have super ears, they can hear whts happening like miles&miles away. go sign yourself up for some freak contest please, and dont try to put th blame on people.

hello, shit, i give up waiting for you gracia..
when you come online i must be like 1234567 yearsold.
so cya ((:

4:15 AM

tmrw will be a muchmuch better day :D not.
why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why
papers were basically screwed haha.
mymindwasonotherthings
english, i wrote about some stupid mother being accused by her daughter and jumping.
i mean seriously haha, i seem to be writing deathstories in EVERY SINGLE COMPO EXAM.
last year also th same thing, haha.
last year i wrote some love story & it ended up with the girl killing th guy and th guy dying..
i suddenly feel damn sadistic la.
as for newspaper report I SCREWED IT UP! T.T
iscreweditcuzicouldntkeepuoffmymind.
chinese was screwed again haha.
i wrote the same storyline.. failing maths as usual..
last year also wrote th same thing HAHA.
so if the same teachr, most likely giv the same marks? lol.
yeah, then i was doingdoing, den i looked up and saw potato yeow! :/
lol, no link, but yeah i think i puked on the spot luhs.
&couldntdoanything,cuzofyou
went 85 wif shipei & glen t buy bubble tea.
i still prefer the oldbubbletea wif my shuaige in there((:
lol, me and glen were pretending to gao3 at the back.
tsktsk, den some people saw & really thought we were.
damn lame, damn whatever, damn crap ((:
anyw im th 80yroldvirgin! LOL! :D
&haiz...
did the stupid proj thing, talked bout people who are childish like siao, haha alot of boys in our class.. almost all -.-
yeahhhh. stupid ahgirlgirl still gets good treament from my bro.. lol.
well, evrytime she come always got VIP treatment de.. zz.
jiayous shipei^^ you can do it de okieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
icantcuzevenifiwantto,itsgone.
tmrw will be a muchmuch better day, i want KFC hahah! :D shipei, ME AND YOU! :D kfc kfc kfc. ((: and duty with the retarded alvina & stupid zaocao haha.
i know what i want.
but YOU dont.

7:32 AM

i will follow you into the dark
i shall blog, coz im bored haha ((:

i swear the geog test tdy jus sucked luhs.
i studied th first two chapters.
then th other two i just put down some random answers.
some tht made sense.. t me at least lols :D

english & chi was major chionging session.
& it didnt help much, for me.

did the myes paper for maths.
made nick redo the whole qn ((:
cuz i couldnt see, which was true haha.
mr chan said he pitied my boyfriend T.T

even if singapore runs out of paper, ahs wont! :D
it'll be printing out demerit form sheets daybyday.
i mean sheeeesh, dun hand up hw giv u greenform, dun do duty giv u greenform, later dun flush toilet also giv u greenform
*rollseyes. eat shit.

shit, i dont know how im going to take the compo tmrw.
yes, at this rate im going to flunk.
at this rate. wif wht im thinking bout.
what the helll!!
gracia IPCC is still revising her stupid geog.
forallsheknows, tmrw she might write a geog compo about globalwarming.
T.T wells. i warned her alright.

im feeling sucky, like shit, i should have knew this was going to happen, should have anticipated, should have realised. i did, but like one says no amount of anticipation can keep one ready for the real thing. i should have known, i would have known, ishouldhaveknown. &yet while i did, i just ignored it and wished &wished tht it wouldnt come true, this shit, all this shit.

night people, im going to sleeeeeeeeep.

`pray to god he hears you.
i cant do it by myself, i still need someone by my side, and if your gone, i dont know who to turn to.

11:46 PM

eclipse of the heart

tmrw's the midyears T.T the compo papers 1 & 2. erm im not rly tt anxious at all. for english & chinese, cuz i know tht ill just fail all.

today homecoming syf? why sunli so good must come back and teach us? hell dun wan! rather fail my exam, lol i take that back ;DD yaya whatever lor.. in the end she come back teach us the stupid ge shi also got no help lor.. &she lost her staff room card i think! heehee veri good, liddat she cnt go in anymore. ((:

ohya today's amanda's birthday HAPPYBIRTHDAY MANDA XNE I LOVE YOU MAN(: serious! :D hahaha, yeah i think she went collect her veri big present. i hope she got collect lol.

tmrw is crap! i sitting with all the veri guai1 and quiet people): dun wan! i wan my old seat back! in front of my seehui, got minghui, and jovyne. all so quiet! i wan my old seat backkk!

in music we were trying to pyscho tht kevin to do a split for his beloved. heehee veri funny cuz he dun wan do, but did a turn! liaolaoshi must be veri proud of him! potential student! ((:

art was veri stupid! fuck that rosemary! she went to lose my art test and ask me redo! damn damn damn! why got liddis de! you lose for me why must i redo! eat shit! go die! i specially used all sorts of yellow, dun care i must get veri high ((: or else i will kill her.

gracia that stupid retard was making so much noise tdy during art! pissed enough alr ok. i resisted an urge to smack her boobs LOL. no im jk this whole para is jk. ((:

i hate people who borrow things and continue borrowing and borrowing! later they will go give to their ah gong ah ma great grandma great grandpa if i never stop them! veri irresponsible ok. ((:

ok stupid junni is hurrying me): bye this is such a short post.

jiayous for myes okaye. but i hate myes. MYES SUCK.
cuz they're changing everyone.or evryone is changing.

6:27 AM

wenwen that retard wants a post dedicated to her! :D
if its shuting, i wont ever rite ths post lor.. haha.
&anw, JIAYOUS ok wif whtever problems u haveeeeee.
&ya haha, if you want some1 t tlk, alwys hv me here de.
-lovesssss! :DD
i want a post toooooo! :D

unfaithful.
iknowishouldntbefeelinglikethis.
butsometimesijustcanthelpiteither.
thefeelingjustcameback.evenbeforeicouldstop.
andnowitsoverwhelmingme.

5:39 AM

everything I love about you is a mess
Smash the mirror and break the palm reader's hand

oh im flying. :D

wah fuck, smtimes i wonder why im so dumb to go & install tht internet explorer 7.0 damn lag lor. took 10 mins to open ONE PAGE, for heavens sake. T.T wells erm yeah. DAMNNNNNNNN dun ever install internet 7.0 or you'll be screwed. like me.

&my lifeeeeeeeeeeee haha. i saw smone i din want to see, at all. &yes it was fucking screwed&fucking awkward. or more like I WAS.
well whateverr. ohyes, the ms singapore winner jessica tan. she's the chioest of the lot lor, other than the rest, all look like some auntie.. :D lols. i feel retarded.

bye, im going to lose myself & dodododododododododod work amen. :D

It feels like you're a million miles away as you're lying here with me tonight.
I can't even find the words to say
I can find a way to make it right.
And we both know that the story's ending,
We play the part but we're just pretending and I can't hide the tears
'cause even though you're here,
It feels like you're a million miles away.
Was it me, or was it you that broke away?
For what we were is like a season love is change
And every time I think about it, it tears me up inside.
Like the rivers of emotion but I got no more tears to cry.

1:32 AM

proximity.

retarded i love the rain.
went to 85, got soaked.
glen & shipei & nana reminiscing about the 1K days.
ahhh i feel so.. retarded :D
drank like 2 cups of bubble tea.
blame hosy (x ahh im retarded.

was raining so hard when we finished talking.
nana & i were retarded.
there was a puddle of water, we saw cheryl mun.
we walk into the puddle, then
*stun tio
na: omg cherylmun leh!
me: *stop omg cherylmun!
na + me: cheryl cheryl!
den we realise we're like standing in a puddle of water and calling like a retard.
hahas.

er yeah lessons was kinda okaye.
we din do homecons presentation :O
missng wanted to deduct marks
whatevers, damn lame.

PE was kinda crapz.
ran & ran.
i ran EIGHT round, mr lim said i din.
hmph. he was watching me EVERY round can, so i want cheat how to cheat?
anw im too guai1 yos :D

science was slacking period.
me&gracia came up with ultimate chiobu list! :D
&second was gracia! (she put herself)
ohmans, im puking.

misstan got pissed with us, cuz we were late (partly cuz sunli delayed)
&thus, those late ones (over 3/4 of the class) had to take demerit.
oh waddehell.
this is like, my second one, YAY? :D
cant blame tht she was pissed.. yeah, she's a nice teacher, but yeah.

sunli's * compo got us into trouble damnit.
another reason why i shud not do.

i dont know who *'s referring to, cant tel anymore.
as shipei said, the chances of me & * are like.. hahaha.
ohmans. im getting so emo again T.T
aftr i tried nt t th whole day.

i'm flying :D
when yr near, hold me close, dont wanna let you slip through the vestiges of time :D

10:50 PM

whateverrrr i dont give a damn.

self against world, selves against world. hello. what difference does it really make. at this point of time, i'm standing alone. or rather, im standing with azzT.

:/ i dont get stupidly sad over some bloody people..
you got what you wanted, BE HAPPY at the repercussions that follow & accept it cuz you made this decision.

4:09 AM

stupid msn is lagging, stupid comp is lagging.
dl-ing audi (?!) fail, dl-ing photoshop, so damn lag, dl-ing new internet (im lag) haha.
well, yeah some istupid msg bout resetting internet settings. this is the third time i've redl-ed the stupid photoshop oh damnit.

i feel stupid when im with you :D stupidlyinlovewithyou(x
yes, i do. HAHA. dontyoufeelthesametoo.
everysingleminutethatgoesby.

2:50 AM

why do all good things come to an end?
&where is the end for us.
I feel gravity, and I wonder why

sweet dreams :D
oh this is so uberbly cool haha. :D

Wells went over to nana's house to ~~play~~ do work. :D

Met zhuzhuzzzzzzzz at tm to eat first. Went to pastamania, I guess macs would have been a cheaper choice. Haha, but we'll both get killed by our parents tnite, well gone. Yeah had lots fun. Trying to come up with 101waystodie, but stopped at like 5 haha. :D Whateverssss.

Met nana at Pasir Ris, and yeah went t do. Shipei was being a good CEO and doing, and then she got diverted, and left the job to me & nana! :O Crapz you luh shipei. I shall really be a bad girl & change the balls to fishballs? Haha, thinking dirty? Not even supposed to be. whatever :O

Had lots of fun luhs. &nana's fridge is like super big can? twice the size of my fridge T.T Twice as many stufzzzzzz inside tooo. lols. Well yeah, and her brother is so the not horny. Whatever, i had fun torturing him. :D

&nana's lovebirds are cool yeah. They scare Shipei. More like Shipei that poksaiiii is scared of them. Yeah :D Haha whateverrrrs. Lovebirds. Cool.

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with y our smile.
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.
-koped from wenwen.

wells, i had an uber fun day lalas. haha.
cuz you know ill wait up all night for you, just to see you fall asleep

2:50 AM

rotting.

1:37 AM

there's a point in your life, where you realise who mattered, and who never did.

hello its a boring afternoon & me and shipei are rotting t death. & dear little hosy must still be sleeping. im playing lamelamelame games like freeonline & miniclip haha. ;D im rotting. my brain is too. &im thinking, which is why i want to go and do my maths, at least it keeps my mind from wandering. &im getting emo, and shit & haha emoshit?

there's the homecons presentation on monday, &yes tmrw goign over to pearlynas house (hopefully?) to do that. HOPEFULLY IF MY MOTHER ALLOWS ME. crapshittttto.

i want to be a nurse, yes. ;D i havent forgotten heehee. or ill be a policewoman, do the front job! :D or be a PE teacher, as mr lim as my role model. all the students will love me to bits ;D

/&im not going to sink into selfpity.

yr selfopinionated arent you.

10:41 PM

drive until you lose the road

yes, doing maths is fun when you have nothing t do/stressed. somehow, it just helps to forget evrysingleproblem. &of cuz it gives me headaches too, cuz i dont know how to do ~~some~~ alot of problems. yes, geog sucks the worst of all, & i got chinese tuitioin later which really sucks, cuz it doesnt even freaking help me at all. i think chinese tuition is an utter mistake, hello.

There was a group of people eating in a restaurant. They had just finished their meal, and everyone was arguing that they should be the one to pay. Each wanted to foot the bill.

Now the waiter assigned to the table was having a hard time. He didn't know who to hand the bill to, and was twisting this way and that. So he came up with a brilliant idea to solve the problem.

He got everyone to stand outside on the sidewalk.He told them, "Well have a race to decide who pays for the meal. The fastest one to run one round around the block will pay the bill."

"1, 2, 3, GO!"

All of them ran off, and they ran good and hard. Now the waiter was watching their backs. He turned the other way, expectantly waiting for the fastest runner to return.He waited, and he waited, and he waited, and the hour passed.

The table of people never returned.

lol this is a super retarded story can, i think im probably the dumb waiter (: hahah. anyw, i've gotten my ideas for compo, oh toodles. its time to start with my chinese compo & maybe somemore geog revision. motivation to study for midyears! :D &i wonder how i even got it.

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness i lost myself
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

7:18 PM

I can't even find the words to say
I can find a way to make it right.
do you?
yo sup people :D
midyears are coming in like 2 weeks time and i should be a good girl revising, yet im here in front of the computer again haha. well yeah later ill be going to do the stupid zuowen she assigned us, and yeah haha, im kinda getting ideas now. :D its kinda cool what im learning from dickdick :X

haha yeah [: many things have happened, and im going to wash my hands out of all this shit and not care anymore. & yes, somehow i treasure my friends more after all these pissing stuff. well yes, self doubt and insecurity again lols.

anw my msn is screwed. & i need to find out my bloodtype for th shanghai trip & i have absolutely no idea where to get it haha. cuz kkh doesnt have the bloodtype. haha so yeah. x) im want to find out!

whatever, fishballz & fishcakes. & i wnat a bballbonding DESPERATELY! D: after mids! there's a whole load of freakign homework to do, and well waiting for someone to come online isnt going t help much. :/ oh & PLUS i have to REDO my freaking art test she confirm going to lose.

screw rosemary. this is the second time she lost my arttest damn her please. so its the third time im doing. oh fishball, fishcakezzz.

do give up, im not going to try anymore. if you try you'll make it really worse.

While our song is playing its last note,
We both know for sure that it's time to close that door.

6:32 AM

I SEE A GIRL.
TALKING ON PHONE.
DE WHITE AND SHINY BAG WITH BLACK WORDS AND RIM.
LOOK SO FAMILIAR.
once i see her i noe is hu le.
CHOWYY AHH!!! GO TM AGAIN HAR?!?!?!?!?
she din see me @ 1st.
if i continue lowering my head probably she'd juz miss me.
so i raised my head for de dumb chowyy to notice!
xd
and she noticed.
guess hus shes talking to.
SHIPEII!!!
so she put down de phone.
and walk with me to de rest of de way to mrt.
and told STORIES AND STORIES.
oh man.
chowyy had SOOO MANY STORIES tat i hadnt had enuf time to listen ever since we seperated class!
x.x
haii.

HOSY! :D your right i probably would have missed you.
lols. we should go out one day then i tel you more more stories! (:
yr right evr since boonthenoob went to separate us.. T.T
ya whatever, evryday i shall go yr class talkshit with donovan, copy spelling, crap with hongwen &tell you more lovely stories.
x.x
haii.

cheer up chowy.
you got me& er.. sunli!
....<3>
shuting :D

you know you look like a ghost right, but yeah dun care istill love you.
*cuz if i love u, rosemary will love me, den she will giv me higher grades for art damnit.
whatever la.
we shall KTP haha! :D
i haven forgotten la.

i didnt know it, but i alr became an introvert :D
thanks hosy for the rings, i shall give you an apple.
it keeps the doctor away amen. :D

5:49 AM

there's never a right time to say goodbye.

somehow, these words just kept ringing and ringing and somehow, i just couldnt get it out of my head.

tdy was okaye.
oh that sunli just ENJOYS picking on me so much, fishballz.
&naturally, i love being picked on by her.
highfive man gracia :D
its an honour to be highlighted in front of the class and 'praised' people x)

went out with shipei&gracia.
we went to bugis, heehee, and took the lift up to 14th floor and down! :D
&up and down! :D
lalas but they were screaming like mad people haha, while i was jumping around.

then ahpei was a super wet blanket and went home.
well, fishballz la.
i specially walked her all the way bac to bugis, cuz i scared she got lost lol.
ah, SOMEONE needs to specially thank me(x
-loves girl! :D thanks for evrything.

yeah, then we got sian of studying lol.
den went to bugis, went walking all about, finding for a toilet -.-
&travelled back to tampines.
ate mac, laughed over retarded pictures.
then after that was okaye lor.
thanks shipei again(x seriously love u.
&gracia, had lots of spasticretardedshit fun with you! :D

i went home feeling emoshit, cuz of somethng,
&met hosy. (:
its funny how i became so damn happy luhs:D
i voluntarily walked with her to the mrt yay (x
&for tht 10 mins, i forgot evry single little piece of shit that happened to me.
haha, i cant get emo around you lameshit hosy! :D

im sorry for being cold to you, but im just following smthing i believe in :D never get too attached, it'll help getting detached. you'll be better with them, seriously. now i sound like the bitch evryone thinks tht i am, haha.
im feeling so pissed.
i should have expected this, yes.
but at least listen, which you didnt even bother can.

think of me in whatever bloody way you like. it always comes to a point of time that i dont really care anymore. way past caring.

<3> SHIPEI bio! :D

7:20 AM

self degratory, self degrading.

thankyou shipei&gracia, ipc :D

you cant have your cake and eat it; classic saying. since no one really gives a damn anyway, i shan't too. i need someone to be my salvation, someone to hang out with me, someone who understands who's willing to understand. someone like hosy. and shuting.

saying this gets you no whr, but i really miss the times i had last time. all i wished is that i treasured it more.
its going to rain.

Cuz i realized i got
Me myself and i
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out
And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gonna be my own best friend

thanks for helping me make the decision when i was indecisive :D
stick with me, i dont know what i can do without you..

6:46 AM

hell, im just fuckingly..

will someone come &help me?
cuz there's no one.
i can tell a million people & nothing will happen.

fucking hell, why am i crying at this point of time.
i never really fit with all of your, yeah, i read her blog. i dont even fit in at all. i miss the times with hosy, and the bballfamily, where we just all fit tgt. life is fucking screwed now. im helping evryone i can but no one can help me. im screwed.
introvert, i always have myself, self explanatory isnt it.

`i should have expected this would happen
i did. but i didnt know it would affect me so much.

1:24 AM

"when its time to let go, let it all go, even if it means isolating yourself from every single person around you."

its time to isolate myself, to let it all go, to break the bonds, to blah. yes seriously it wont make much a difference becuz im so isolated from 2F and i dont have a real friend there haha. loves to the ipc but seriously no one gives a damn anyway. i dont. yups. i've already lost my real self, as gracia said, i've changed into someone i didnt want to change into before. yes, and thts tht lor.

darn, the stupid enter key somehow doesnt work anymore, and i had to bang it damn hard before it worked. yes anyway, yes crapshit these days sucked.. wells, i have to live with it dont i.
in func, in dance, in 2F. i just dont fit in. its time to isolate myself even though i alr started long ago.
never get too attached, it helps getting detached. :D :D
it really helps.

7:20 PM

hey people :D

wasnt reallyyyyy tht happy these few days haha but talking to wonderful people just cheered me up luhs x)

well school started at 8.50 today haha.
its kinda cool if that happens evryday anw :D
which is like fat hope.
&anw, im a cool,nice girl alrites.
i specially woke up for shipei, to pei[3] her in school alrites, jus cuz she had to come early.
haha, praise me please do.

anw went down to 85 [:
it was crapshit & retardedness.
soyabean + carrotcake! oh-so-coolios.
anyw, it was LOVES going down with you alrites.
jiayouuuu for syf alrites
-LOVES! :D

yup, went back to school. i daoed her.
i realised why i tripped on the stairs.
i met my unluckystar -.-
ohcrapshit.

had maths, which was major sianstation period.
sat with gracia.
IPCC! (: jiayous okaye, loves.

recess was kinda crapz?
went t see shipei! :D
haha she looks cute in her waitress unifrom.
lols, wht was damn funny was.
i met this person, * who gave me that sort of "oh man im so much better than you but your so pathetic and you duno it look" to me.
supercilious, eat shit.
yo, im so scared im peeing :D

chinese was superduperly borinig too.
&geog. yups.
english, we watched army days! :D
yups, me and gracia were talking bout 6HI life.
which is cool.

CD was stupid luhs.
it was about some friendship thing.
haha yeah, i love yr bballfamily! :D
&ipc -loves.
haha. yeah but other than tht no more lor.
sadded shit.

some qns from tht crapshit ws;
do you need a best friend? i have myself.
are you satisfied with yr friends? nt in 2F.
&blahblahblah.

remedial was spastic.
that stupid teacher has a serious identity crisis.
she calls me yanyan, calls sheryl yi jia & jingyi (?), calls tht mycar qijing, and hao[4] kai[3] hao[2] kai[3].
she's retarded, serious.
seriously YAN4YAN?!
so i told her "er zhou1 yan4."
and she was like "orh. zhou1 yan4 yan4"
like wtf? -.-
i give up sias..

hell, yes, im still pissed. at you. x)
---
&OHMANS fucking bigmouths SUCK.
all they do is keep their bigmouth moving 24/7.
yes, if i want to spread around news ill tell you.
if not, just do us a favour and SHUT UP.
maybe i am making a big fuss out of nothing at all. but think from my point of view. its equal to accusing me of something i did not do, experiencing something i didnt even experience at all. maybe my opinion doesnt really matter at all.
WHY SHOULD IT IN THE FIRST PLACE right :D
ohmans, shut up chowy.
i cant keep my mouth shut, cant stop voicing my opinions.
i just cant stop bitching about people &making them feel bad.
why should i? ITS FUN.
since when have your guys ever thought for ME.

6:40 AM

yr my salvation,
the one that i cn always depend on,
i tried to be strong,
believe me, im trying.

it's I.P :D
not integrated programme luhs!
haha. :D

three introverts to be :D
-lovesloves ipcc & ipcvp <3

5:53 AM

i miss bballfamily.
i wish that stupiddrnoob din go and reshuffle us can.
i miss hosy alot. T_T
i miss shuting alot T_T
shuting&hosy -loves! :D

finally its back to normal x)
we're cool. its alright.
i hope it doesnt happen again :)

[edit]
dont be a bitch, chowy.
just shut your mouth and everything will be alright.
is this what you mean?
yes, i make you sad, make u feel bad.

5:10 AM

I'm over your lies,
and I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me,
when you know I'm not okay.

You call me at night,
and I pick up the phone.
And though you've been telling me,
I know you're not alone.
oh..

That's why
(your eyes)
I'm over it
(your smile)
I'm over it
(realize)
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over..

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.

Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..
I'm over your hands,
and I'm over your mouth.
Trying to drag me down,and fill me with self-doubt.
oh..

That's why,
(your words)
I'm over it
(so sure)
I'm over it
(I'm not your girl)
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over...

Wanting you,to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

Don't call,don't come by,
ain't no use,don't ask me why,
you'll never change,there'll be no more crying in the rain.
Wanting you,to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,because I'm so over..

Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..
I'm so over it....
I'm over it...

Katharine Mcphee, Over it. haha, its a super cool song. sometimes, i think the lyrics make so much sense

4:09 AM

i was polite.
i didnt write so many fucks, freaking shit.
im just saying what i feel.

&maybe you should feel bad, when you werent even thinking for us at all.

3:42 AM

freaking.

today i went to school so highed out luhs, but came back like shit.

alrites, the morning assmbly was like sai lor.
drboon was going on about some RUBBISH rubbish.
:/ no comments.
then sunli made gracia tuck in her shirt, even though it was alr tucked it.
like freaking. so she wants gracia to tuck in like kevin?
freaking hell man

first two lessons, geog & smthg were sianded luhs.
evrytime its all the same thing ;D
& ms kartini going on and on and on.

chinese was kinda boring too.
double period. double boring.
heehee, im going to add comments for ppl on enjoyedu now.

recess had the cupcake tasting.
&i din even do the ws properly HAHA.
no offc, but all the cupcakes tasted like shit la.

art was stupid.
freaking.
she lost my art test AGAIN.
like this is going to be the third time i do it?
freaking hell. then she wan give me a 0.
I COMPLAIN.

okaye freaking.
i went up, i met some people, and i came down pissed like shit.
then i heard something from gracia & i got more pissed!
like freaking, i shall complain later.

music was uberbly stupid luhs! :D
we're using shipei's retarded tune.
for once, ms lee went to gossip with us.
which is like.. omg.

i was pissed during english. ;D
damn sian this period lor..
haha, nick's article was damnit cute ;D

went down t 85 with shuqing.
met sheryl&suwern.
well, never really bonded with ahqing luhs.
but she's so cool.(x

went up, wanted to go library to blog.
&i dunno how i rmbred hosy was @ dnt.
so i went thr.

freaking, i love hosy so much.
i guess she's the best luhs! ;D in 2F, i have no one.
yups. I WANT TO JOIN DNT!(:
cuz i can see hosy&shuting.
we sat there and we talked and talked.
;D it was super loves can.

i koped alot of stuffz from dnt ;D
hehe. the mr lim let me take ok.
&hosy helped me make alot also, loves!
whereas tht stupid shuting i ask her she dun wan.
SO STINGY(:
i enjoyed myself alot wif them.
-loves!

yes, im pissed.
&yes im going to say this.
&yes, i freaking dont care anymore.

how do you freaking expect me to connect? to FEEL, in your own words? to EXPERIENCE what your experienced? your sure change tune very fast. a moment ago, we were all singing the same tune. now just cuz we're fucking ********, you EXPECT us to feel. to experience. how do expect us when we didnt even go at all. expecting too much is really ruining. for goodness fucking sake, yr just looking from your point of view as usual. think from our view. will you? ohyes, maybe.

i wonder why im getting pissed over this.
when i shouldnt even fucking care anymore.

thanks ;D for daoing me. for being cold. for scolding me fuck. for leaving me with nothing at all. for giving me the best of worlds and leaving. for being selfish. for being a fucker. for just being you.

10:40 PM

right, im becoming an introvert soon.
of cuz im tht bad right..
im leaving you with nothing, when i gave you evrything.
whatever, just give it up.
im pissed PISSED pissed @ evryone

Yes, im the one in the wrong. Im a heartless creep. Im a bitch. Why? Cuz I just cant connect with the dumb ***. cuz i wasnt fucking there at all. yes its MY FAULT. blame me. :D i dont mind. losing friends is a part of my evryday life.

1:05 AM

yos people(:

today was kind of cool luhs.

lessons were boring as usual.
english was kinda fun though;D
kevin's group read out gracia's compo.
gracia was an instant star yos..
the protruding ~~penis~~ genitals.

mdm hidayah din come for 4 lessons.
so it was basically slacking time.
which is, cool ((:

i flunked maths.
i've been like passing it tycoly & now i fail lor..
which isnt such a big big hit.

assmbly was coolios! :D
yups, went backstage with all functions! to do.. backstage.
me&alvina are so cool yos.
den the stupid joseph was trying to act cool..
& was failing la.
sports class combined and did some gymnastics.
which was heehee kind of cool.
2J's !stomp was okaye i guess..
x) i cheered for them!(:
the dance was okaye too.
x)) i was laughing at jeewah and alvina
and they forget all their steps (:

aft tht went down with shipei stupid to 85.
she INSISTED on bubble tea.
INSISTED on curry rice.
soon she'll insist i help her throw her plates.
amen.

wells, yeah we queued like 1/2 an hour ofr buble tea can!
at first, there were a couple of girls from * school.
&then suddenly all the girls EACH started ordering 2 or 3 drinks, sometimes instant noodles.
&more &more started coming.
zzz luhs.
yup, basically we were crapping thr.

went to the coffeeshop eat shipei's ~~stupid~~ curryrice.
she INSISTED -.-
yeah, basically we crapped luhs.
i broke my record can. 4s! :D
retarded bio and smart chem talked & crapped.
at one point, she was laughing so much her curry rice came up and she puked.
IM SERIOUS OKAYE..
not.
:D

yup then it RAINED! :D
and we walked in th rain.
acty is i walked, but she wanted to run, well too bad luhs.
so we came back so.. wet.

-muchloves! ahpei.
your a retarded bio, but well, who cares sias.
heehee, jiayous okaye! :D
&stop comparing results t glen, t jeremie, t faris :D
compare to me. then u'll feel so shuanged.

&yes. im pissed pissed pissed.
yes. i am.
k bye people.

:D people spread spread spread rumours.
cant dey keep their bigmouth shut luhs..
w, can we just stop this daoing game seriously. i dont wnt you to dao me. but i cant admit too. cuz i wasnt in the freaking wrong at all. whats wrong with ______. seriosuly i see nothing wrong with it. as it is, its just you.
&so the daoing game goes on.

just something

6:43 AM

`Whatsgoingonnow.
everysingletime
every thing just screws up.
it just wasnt meant to be maybe?

im sry for daoing you.
but u expect me to apologise to you.
just get rid of this?
then wont it be perfect?

maybe no matter what,
i just cant get it
tht perfect lie im trying to spin.

maybe, this was all meant to be.
maybe, its just like this.

i know whats going on.
its time to end .

5:36 AM

`fu[2] wu[2] shuang[1] zhi[4], huo[4] bu[4] dan[1] xing[2]
when will you ever learn to trust me.
when when when when when :D
then, all these problems will stop
gracia and her japan imported san pad :D

12:48 AM

tdy rocked luhs.
it was a coolcool, funfun day! :D
with my !BIO shipei.

first lesson was geography.
geog is seriously damn boring.
&ms kartini like evryday also talk crap lor.
siansations!

science was boring also.
&i havent even handed up my proj.
&it needs to be handed up by wed.
oh wadde -.-

PE was er okaye?
ran with !shipei.
PE lessons are boring, but running with her was fun luhs
-loves!
&then played bball.
then we were talking about CFC boobs and how it harms th environment &blablabla

SUNLI wasnt supposed to come for chinese
well she CAME.
T.T

homecons was retarded
we got scolded for making too much noise lol.
cool mans.

shipei went to ask bingyi a very retarded qn.
*censored*! :D
&duh bingyi gave a retarded answer can.(:

met inggrid after tht(:
we sat thr and really talked heehee.
inggrid is very funny when she laugh, but she say i laugh very funny.
&i tink tt inggrid shud go and eatshit :D
freshghost sias! (x
she complain i hit her too much x)
&den we talked&talked&talked.
wish doreen was here though
T.T

the herd family is so cool man.
introducing! xD
SHUAIGE! :D the no1 shuaige of all.
he's super duper cool & i rly rly love him!
HEEHEE. like real-.-

bamboo! :D
* damn cool. yeah tts all lor.
but * puts my weight to shame ok -.-
cuz *'s like a bamboostick
chou1 jin1! :D
ohwhatcanisay.
one day, i must really learn from *
i find * way of * ohsocool can.
yeah like baby trying hard to peeee.
babyface! :D
*chew* gosh i still cant become like *
* is so freaking cool.
* reminds me of when i was a baby
i want baby food now T.T
curtain fringe! :D
i know my fringe sucks luh.
but i think * is more cool can.
like from my grandmother curtain.
who else did i miss out arhs?
dunos lor. i think this whole famiy freeeaking coolios lor(x

so was accompanying shipei to choir.
i wasnt even gossiping about them.
i just wanted to MARRY SHUAIGE! :D
yups. &nvm, he too shuai lor :/
wont marry me, i got my dick anw.

DICKDICKDEDICK!(: = d4
omg he nv come tdy & i missed him and d4 lor.
T.T

i hate art.
&rosemary's stupid art lor..
freaking boring.

`give up luh.
you wont get anythign done.
seriously.

10:23 PM

fuck you.

10:15 PM

Shipei, yr a cool BIO! :D
lalas. x) -loves!

`give it all up alrite. :D
it isnt worth it. what ur doing isnt right.
how yr trying to get me bac, its just wrong.

4:47 AM

`you're just too late.
too little too late. a little too late

4:17 AM

deviantart pics are chiochio! :D

&this is my favourite pic sias!

heehee. its an ART alrites.(:

i shall put it as my dp.

ok, i love hosy.

i want to get married to her NO MATTER WHT <3

im stressed enough as it is. &allthesePROBLEMS!

S-T-R-E-S-S!!

so all of you please please please please please leave me alone.

for one hour, one day, one week, one month.

just leave me alone :D

3:20 AM

circle circle dot dot

heehee, im thinking dirtyyyyyyy.

heehee, yes im feeling in a lovey kind of mood.
&alrite, i know im super duper retarded ;D

with this www.enjoyedu.blogspot.com :D

but ohyes, you have to agree its coolio.

sunli will be so PROUD -.-

&tmrw is school

&i dont feel like going.

i dont feel like facing evryone.

having to hear those * rumours.

anw we're shifting down, exchangin wif 2A

&i support man! :D

i dont LIKE climbing up 5 stories evryday -.-

then going down for assembly

climbing up for lessons

going down for PE, homecons, art, etc.

climbing up for lessons

going down for recess

climbing up after recess.

oh waddehell -.- dun like lor.

&thrs no one thr im close to at all.

as in on the fifth level &in class. :D

yups, th only person is NOSY! <3

heehee. i cant believe i love her aft so long.

I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
runaway with me, wont you :D

3:09 AM

blogger is crap.
* it please.

3:09 AM

she's like so, whatever.
she keeps saying she's going. going going going. byebye. then why she's still there?
life sucks. tmrw there's oral duty & its bloodyearly
&er the openhouse? see how luhs.
i dont want to see ANYONE. yeah, you think i really want to go and come back tired..
classes, lessons were boring blah.
haha, with gracia blabbing to me, it was fun though(:
coz i could put my mind off other * things
chinese we were talking about food.
haha yeah it was cool,
coz it got me hungry.
gracia is a pig! :D
food. so materialistic.
english was damn boring la..
mrs jain ask us t move bc.
so i move back to my introvert place at the back.
science was kinda boring la, as usual.
i still havent hand in my science file hah.
damn sorry qy.

maths was kinda fun.
coz mr chan is retarded
& EVIL! hahahaha.
coz maths takes things off my mind.
&yes went t 85 wif shipei, oh loves.
haha, din wan t go t kfc, 'coz i just din feel like kfc.
you know what, i dont give a damn-.- coz i just went through school like somemechanical thing
i guess its not yr fault, its just me.
veri sorry.
it just kinda faded & you still dont know what you want & your confusing me & we're losing it.
damn tired, dun wan go t school tmrw.
it's realllly veryy tiring.
go t sch and pretend, go t open house and pretend, go t piano and pretend, go t tuition and pretend. pretend pretend pretend. we'll have pretense when all else is lost.
hey sunli was right tht time when she was pissed wif the whole class, and gracia.
&she was not picking on me & wenqi & gracia.
she was right..
when she was pissed, she said stuff tht really had truth in it. condolences cant cancel out the fact, no matter how much, how sincere, how fake.
i've edited the stupid enjoyedu thing.
it really showed alot this 2F comments.
&yes by alot, i mean ALOT..
fakefakefakefakefake. there's no use going ard saying its fake when your part of it yourself.
it gets so hard to be around you, what to say and what not.
how do you even expect me t continue. dont pitc yr expectations too high..
i shall end here.
it hurts bad.
it's just the same story, only with a different title, it happens all the time.
i shall be as cold as cold can be.

Life is simple, its just not easy

3:09 AM

she's like so, whatever.
she keeps saying she's going. going going going. byebye. then why she's still there?
life sucks.
tmrw there's oral duty & its bloodyearly
&er the openhouse? see how luhs.
i dont want to see ANYONE. yeah, you think i really want to go and come back tired..
classes, lessons were boring blah.
haha, with gracia blabbing to me, it was fun though(:
coz i could put my mind off other * things
chinese we were talking about food.
haha yeah it was cool, coz it got me hungry.
gracia is a pig! :D
food. so materialistic.
english was damn boring la..
mrs jain ask us t move bc.
so i move back to my introvert place at the back.
science was kinda boring la, as usual.
i still havent hand in my science file hah.
damn sorry qy.

maths was kinda fun.
coz mr chan is retarded
& EVIL! hahahaha.
coz maths takes things off my mind.
&yes went t 85 wif shipei, oh loves.
haha, din wan t go t kfc, 'coz i just din feel like kfc.
you know what, i dont give a damn-.- coz i just went through school like somemechanical thing.
i guess its not yr fault, its just me.
veri sorry.
it just kinda faded & you still dont know what you want & your confusing me & we're losing it.
damn tired, dun wan go t school tmrw.
it's realllly veryy tiring.
go t sch and pretend, go t open house and pretend, go t piano and pretend, go t tuition and pretend. pretend pretend pretend. we'll have pretense when all else is lost. should i say freaking YAY?
hey sunli was right tht time when she was pissed wif the whole class, and gracia.
&she was ~~not~~ picking on me & wenqi & gracia.
she was right..
when she was pissed, she said stuff tht really had truth in it. condolences cant cancel out the fact, no matter how much, how sincere, how fake.
i've edited the stupid enjoyedu thing.
it really showed alot this 2F comments.
&yes by alot, i mean ALOT..
fakefakefakefakefake. there's no use going ard saying its fake when your part of it yourself.
it gets so hard to be around you, what to say and what not.
how do you even expect me t continue. dont pitc yr expectations too high..
i shall end here.
it hurts bad.
it's just the same story, only with a different title, it happens all the time.

Life is simple, its just not easy

9:18 PM

TWOFondue, where everyone is coated with chocolate, looking pleasant on the outside
quoted from retarded spastic glenchua

its sunday! x)
there's so much homework & i havent done any.
yup, reminder to myself T.T

chinese sihan
chinese 3blog posts on enjoyedu
chinese compre
chinese file
chinese spelling
english newspaperarticlewriting
maths qns, mrchan assigned
science ws
art, th stupid test she freakingly LOST!
art, th packaging design thing.

ohmygosh.
&i havent done a single thing mans.
¬ice its almost half all CHINESE!
grr, stupid sunli.

anw, 98.7 having its top20 countdown.
heehee, thts ohsocool.

anw just had tuition, break now.
T.T its boring luhs!
i hate maths, my brain is bursting, whatever.
i miss my old tuition, whr i could sms like freely okaye.
T.T aww mans.

alrites, cya people.
and ohyes. this is super retarded man, bt who cares! :D
RETARDED TZZZY! :D
i dont even know what to do wif you anymore
&im sorry. ill just have to do wht i hate th most.
cuz you keep sayin you'll change. but you dont know wht to change.
&i dont know wht i want u to change either.
maybe we just dont have that chem.
shipei's my bio! :D im her chem <3

7:34 AM

&yes, this image is so love can.
i realise im getting nth done here, heehee.
so anw, night people.

if i could escape, & recreate a place thats my own world,
i would be your favourite girl.
&wont that be sweet.

6:44 AM

i declare jeremie is superduper stupid luh.
he thinks i drew on his table,
JEREMIE LOVES JEREMIE.
retarded jeremie can.
im not so bitch, like he said :D

anw, im suaning him now.

thanks for the memories- fall out boy says:
crazy bitch

tell. says:
thanks for the compliment, bastard

thanks for the memories- fall out boy says:
hah bastard is for nick. horny bastard...

tell. says:
LOL dun call my dick horny bastard hor you fucker.
tell. says:
bet u use up the whole condom shop the condom lor
tell. says:
eh show yr dick can go house of condom. althought above 18 la
tell. says:
cuz your dick looks mature. and is long. and big x)

thanks for the memories- fall out boy says:
ewww. u are sick and fucking crapped up

tell. says:
not as bad as you lor.
tell. says:
dun act gay. you are alr gay
tell. says:
and dun act cool. cuz you lose to me luh (X

thanks for the memories- fall out boy says
:im not trying to be cool
thanks for the memories- fall out boy says:
ur just a sick bitch

tell. says:ur just a sick bastard
tell. says:with a big dick

thanks for the memories- fall out boy says:
i didnt even say anything sick lah
thanks for the memories- fall out boy says:
stupid
thanks for the memories- fall out boy says:
knnb lah

tell. says:
did i? i din say lor
tell. says:
and tts nt even sick la
tell. says:
you just have the mental capacity of a 1yr old

whatever stupid jeremie.
all you know how to do is use vulgarities. which i can x)
i was emo, i was down, i was feeling like shit, AND JEREMIE MADE ME HAPPY.
heehee. i shall suan him evrytime frm now on, dun care whthr he likes it.

i declare, im high sias (X

5:48 AM

how can you break my heart into onemillionpieces?
and then return it back whole and perfect? &loved.(:

went to th hospital tdy.
t visit my aunty.
&i declare!
I WANT TO BE A NURSE!
my mother says ill scare evryone away ;D, my father says ill get pissed at them first, my brother just said "dreamon."
LOL. whatever!
&im serious, nursing is cool, heehee.
went home, bathed, went out again.
&yes i had a fun day tdy.
heehee. ;D

went shopping!
i hate shopping, yes but i need clothes.
&i only wear jeans lol,
&hate skirts. lol.
i ended up buying NOTHING.
which is, lol.

went macs to eat.
it was cool!
we had "candlelight" dinner, koped idea from mama!(x
frenchfries in curry sauce as candles.
heehee, my fillet became like some shit lor.
chilli sauce, tartar sauce, curry sauce, tomato sauce, COKE, LOL.
i wonder how i finished it all.

i declare orchard road is boring luhs.
but with you its fun (x
&then went t find chickenpie, &got lost.
lol, was talking bout evryone luhs.
teochew pig, nosy, evilboy,etcetc.
&then it started raining, near seven.
heehee.
running in th rain is fun! ;D

found out thr's a houseofcondom.
which was so, like, cool.
&then we discovered the abv18only sign.
nvm, when im 18, ill stand outside at 12midnight & instantly go in.
lol, some idiot wanted to sneak in.
retarded shit luhs! ;D

i want my harrypotter&thedeathlygallows.
&also, sextoys or something HAHA.
jkjk. x) get them for me people.

&i hope what shipei said is CRAP!
i certainly hope so ):

this picture is sadistic but i dont care.
&who ever said love wasnt painful?
it is. ;D but its perfect too.
haha, im getting emo, im getting crazy, whatever.
yes, thanks you. what can i do without u. :D
no idea, dun wanna know. just wanna hold you close to me,
dont ever leave.
take this chance to bitch about me.
ohyes, angels.

7:45 PM

happy birthday LOOLOO! :D

yes you are still a !Spastic retard!
and i rather have weiwei anytime than you!
hahaha. jkjk STOP BEING RETARDED LOO.

anw, ytd was friday th thirteenth.
&april too.
HAHA.

YESSS! i finally got rid of JOSEPH!
haha&he's stuck at changcheng/canteen.
whereas im with alvina at sidegate.
oh -LOVES alvina! :D
heehee.
"persuaded" tenghui t do duty wif joseph at changcheng.
heehee tenghui rocks man.
me&alvina were cool okaye.
we were crapping, playing handphone games, swearing, tht kinda lameshit stufffff.

science was boring.
was crap as usual.

geography was borrring as usual.
&ms kartini was cracking some lamejokes.
&we learnt some stupid chapter.
&im going to die. from geography.

acc was fun lor!
somehow, the projecter spoiled
&lilaoshi let us do anythign we want.
heehee.

chinese was superduper boring luh.
stupid sunli just kept going on and on.
&so now i have to giv her three blog posts on enjoyedu
cuz i din hand up my zuowen.
im pro at lying okaye.
she wanted a reflection, so i gave her lor.
but it was all crap.

went down to 85. you lied.
& was supposed to go down with shipei.
im tired. you said you would stay 3m away.
anw, had bubbletea again. it wasnt even 3cm.
&yes, im getting sick of all the iceblended.
coz i've been drinking it almost evryday. i dun wna giv u false hopes.
&haha anw glen joined us soon. how cn i trust u
&then we crapped alot. if u cant even keep tt.

dance was likeshit la.
&sunli is a born liar.
first she says she wants an excuse letter.
fine lor, i get it for her.
i rush back from 85, sign the bloody paper, give it to her.
&she doesnt even look at it.
&she wont even excuse us.
jingting helped released us though it was quite late.

&im still supposed to give sunli my nicest smile.
a smile that says its all ALRIGHT. of cuz. its alrite for you to kp us.
whatever la.
we're just extras lor, you dont allow us t go there t the syf thingy, you dont allow us to leave for some concert which we got our excuse form, cuz we yuebangyuemang.
excuse me -.-
what do you actually allow us to leave for? :D
ohyes, the most basic luh. changepad, pee, shit, right?
bloooooody shit.

im controlling my temper.
im trying not to burst, with all the problems.
not a single **** in my post or i'd have gone past the 162 mark. ;D
YES IM TRYING TO CONTROL.
but YOUR nt doing ANYTHING!
so why should i?
you DEMAND respect.
you wont get any from me.
i dont see why you should get my respect.
anw had fun yesterday after dance.
Jinnis has weiON now! ;D
hahaha. anw yup lor, had fun! x)

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy sign
sIf there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

shuqing recommended me this song.
thanks ahqing, cheer ups! ;D

many times we find ourselves chasing after the wrong things in life.
we're blind to all the ostracity.
we're just rushing about, banging, and grappling with life.
yes, i duno whaaat to do now.

oh and shipei do cheer up <3
stop being emoshitxz YOU GIRL! :D
&dont care bout those bitches.
fricking hell!

i edited my last post.

7:17 PM

shipeis is my bio, and im her chemistry <3

[edit]
is it so damn hard when i want to be alone for once?
i try to give you my time alr.
i need other friends to alrite..
waiting for things tht wont ever come.
loosen the millstone, throw it to the wind.
trudge through Fear, Risk, Love.
after i emerged from hiding.
sometimes, dont think too much.
it might not be you at all.
& tts why i edited this post, not t giv u false hopes.
hiding behind those fears and that mask.

4:56 AM

turn your life around when times are tough,
cause kites fly highest against wind,
not with it.

AW MAN TZZZY YOUR SO LAME :D

its over.
im dead. x)
gosh i dont know what to do.

ignorance is really bliss.what would i have done if i din hear tt frm gracia?
yet, below the surface lies the definite knowledge of the coming.
so now i know. and yet does it change anything?
i dont know.

i was an evil girl today ):
dont deny it.
i reached my max point. i couldnt take it. i was going to break down. i was going to fall apart.
& im evil. * evil.

i know i cant convince you anymore ____,
its just.. your decision reallyyyy.
why did we lose it all so quickly?
i truly truly thought so.
i dont look frwrd to tmrw.
cuz tmrw there'll be a million and one things on my mind
& the last thing is well fun.

gone, its all it takes :D

4:33 AM

tears mingling with rain, rain mingling with tears, tears mingling with rain, rain mingling with tears, tears mingling with rain, rain mingling with tears..

today just was an almost waste of time.

im sorry for being a bitch.
for being an utter bitch.
i dont know how you can talk to me anymore.
i dont know how I can talk to you anymore.
leave me some time alrite?

i need some space.
&some time alone.
some time to be an introvert.
some time to reflect.
some time to think back.
some time to end this all once and for all.

when you draw a circle around your hand with a pen, you plan it to encircle fully, yet somehow the ends just dont meet.
somehow, WHY (the nicenice song we heard today)
why does things go like this.

dance was a waste of my time.
lessons were a stupid time too.
hais. ;DD

its time to end, what i started :D
time to let go.
time to cut away the last bonds of what i had with the past.
teochew pig! :D chow gal! :D retarded!
leave me be. dont try to cheer me up. or talk to me. or high with me.
i need time to become an introvert. x) time to sort out my thinking, and decide.
this involves alot of people. i cant even make a mistake.

6:10 AM

oh ~~FUCK~~ fishball!
fucking rosemary neo. please stuff your head in the toilet bowl.
mama, please hang on in there okaye :D
seriously.
& dont make a decision you know you'll regret next time.
<33333 ok.
if you make the wrong decision, i lock you in clock tower ;D

the chowy you have know from this moment is dead.
i have decided.
i dont know how ill do it, i will.

science, and art, and maths.
& so little time to complete them all.

如果爱你是我这一生的糊涂，我宁愿糊涂一辈子。
<3 yups. x) cya tmrw.

12:26 AM

im dead from this moment.

i dont deny tt i get emo. i mean evryone does.
im just a little more emo these days ;D
&yes. i dont know how to deal with anything now.
im hiding, im running, im trying my best to shy away.
fishballzzz, i know.
i want to jump. run away and hide and just fade away.
oblivion is cool. ;D
&yes, ill just sleep on it.
sleep is SUPERDUBERCOOL ;D

&yes I STILL WANT MY BUBBLETEA ):
imaginary, surreal, unrealistic, what can i say.
sometimes its just so hard.
since when did simple things like this bother me.
the problem. lies. with. ME.
isit?

11:44 PM

i made a mistake.

geography was boring.
& misskartini was going on and on.
& i havent signed my geog paper :X
cuz i still dun dare to show my mother.

jiahao is a reallyreally FUNNY GUY! :D
haha ytd he called mdm hidayah "yo hidayah."
mdm hidayah stun tio, den jiahao was like "oops"
it was DAMNNNNNN funnyyyyy la.

lol, chiense was boring luh.
she can talk for half an hour
& i was smsing all through.
STUPID CHINESE.

yes im in the library now.
& there's sheryl beside me and isabel (zzz) LOL.
isabel is a stupid girl x)
jovyne rocks.
isabel keep pestering her to go to her blog.
den jovyne said "whts so gd bout ur blog anw?"
JOVYNE IS COOOOL! :D
but she insult my wuzun ):

art was stupid luh.
rosemary wanted to give me 4 demerits.
& she freakingly lost my test thing
& she dun wan admit it
& she put the blame on ME
& wan give me A DEMERIT.
oh wtfth can.

music was equally boring.
sheryl came over to high with us.
and misslee say if she dun go bac to her group,
she would fine her 50c -.-
den sheryl said she would pay lol.
and misslee said no you get a demerit too.
misslee suck luh.

im going to get bubble tea later ;D
addicted ;D
oh & i hate _____.
toooooooooooot.

7:27 AM

watch me change. ;D

6:58 AM

i keep keep keep keep keep thinking..
of how you freaking ___ me. fishball.

5:57 AM

i cant say today was very good.
cuz it wasnt even good at all.
fishballzzz.

HAPPY BDAY HOSY!
YAYYY I LOVE YOU! :D

thr was council meetin early in th morning.
& jinniS ponned again.
& me and alvina were like crapping & crapping can.
we were one of the earliest.
praise us we're so damn guai :D

lessons were blahblah boring.
evryone is so damn emoshit today.
what i dont blame them ok.

english! :D
played scrabble.
me and dick2 combined and formed a horny team.
our conclusion; horny words get you alot of points. (sex, ox, be got us 49 points)
x) we contributed to xiyings fuck x)
oh how superdupercool.
& then we had jesus can!
omg we're cool (X

assembly was so damn COOL too.
had the duno what millionaire thing.
2F came in 2nd! :D
hah we highed & screamed.
thn bingyi koped so much sweets can.
so i koped from him.
x)

i dun really feel anything luh.after what happened last night.
& i seriously seriously dont know what to think.
i go to school happy.
YES I FAKE.
i just dont like showing my emotions all out.

you have your own problems.
im sorry for adding on.
im just saying what i really think.
me, you * jus try tgt ok.
if tts what you want.