ShangHai Phobia
6:20 PM
So far shanghai has been OK i think.
Stupid nick aka Farmer Brown is retarded x)
My tagboard is so alive because of him.
.I've spent so much of my money, none left liaos.
Why am i not surprised? x)
Comp lessons are so damn fun, you can blog there.
After that there's stupid, retarded boring lessons.
Fun man.. :D
.Hey sorry if i hurt you. Didnt mean to.
Really didnt mean to.
.
Dont know who the if you remember is.
sorry if i didnt link you.
But what yr typin dun make sense to me
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Took this from Tabitha's blog.
I love functions
Functions love me
We are functions family
With the moving of chairs and running everywhere
All the burdens we all share
(:
Labels: Functions
6:47 PM
i shall pretend i heard nothing from an adult who knows nothing and is sexually deprived.
fuckyoufuckyoufuckyou.&istillsaidi'drefrainfromfucks.guessthatstillisntimpossible.youkeepstickingtoyourstoryishallsticktomine.so?whatcanyoudotome?givemeademerit? GOAHEAD.youdontexpectmetoadmittosomethingiDIDNOTdoihavebetterthingstodoandyourarejustplainSTUPID.sopleasedofuckoff.dontgivemeallthattwo-facedadviceabout"SLEEPIGNEARLY" and whatever.anddonttalkaboutMIANZIwithme.stopbeingtwo-facedandactingsweet.sopleasedofuckoff,andifyouwanttogivemeademerit,goahead.fuckoff.thats random :D but i dont care man.
its stupid this whole shanghai trip. its just plain stupid.
bullshit
6:24 PM
blogging in shanghai.
what can i say its cool? :/
people are having some internet course and im busy blogging.
yeah, nothing to do anyw. (:
so far, the trip has been
GREAT.by great i really mean
GREAT.
we have wonderful teachers (LLS, mrs ong)
and they keep saying GOOD stuff that we didnt even do.
and i feel so honoured :D
thank you teachers, you made my day! :)
then we have one tour guide who is absolutely bullshit.
she was concerned for me & shipei coz we
supposedly did not sleep.
its wonderful, in shanghai. it is.
& our room is like a pig sty, me and sheryl's
:/
i am looking forward to this afternoon.
when people will say some things, only then, not in the morning, so as not to spoil our mood.
i bet i will come out of there laughing and smiling.
hey hey, i miss you.
to commemorate
7:01 AM
Retarded crap la.
Emoshit post here la, come sue me.
Shooshoo if you dont want to read, im nt inviting you too :D
i was reading all my past postsi realised.. two things.i realisd how much i changed.&i realise how much i miss the bballfamily.dont really know hw i changed.more horny? more vulgar? more retarded? xD more crappy?more fake?perhaps, all of this.i changed, thats all i know.i realise, how much i miss 1F.hosy and me wrting messages on our table, coz we wanted to save paper xDhosy, me, jeewah, alvina talking about maple/audi..shuting and me ganging up and torture mr lim {shootng staple bullets @ him, hahas..}jeewah always teasing me.. and i always torture jeewah ^^crystal and her crazy mirror craze.. bballfamily going to 85 meet "alexander the great" and qihao, and.. whoever..bla bla..to think i was that innocent girl *not bhbness ok* who played maple24/7, posted on my blog trying to encourage people to try maple..=.="yeah.. it was innocent..hahas, and i would use the word EMOTIONAL everytime instead of emo..like, "stop being emotional" or "she's emotional now" lol, lameshit luh =.="and i went home everyday after sch, and i revised.. yes i bothered to open the damn book and do assessment books.. =.="i miss bballfamily man(:but comin to 2F isnt that bad.opens my eyes up to the real world.and there's IPC loveeee.and the retarded family...not going to reveal my real char to anyone anymore
5:56 AM
I like plain skins so what.
going to sue me? come on man :D
people can sued for lame things these days anw :DLike Shuting says,
What right do you have to do all this?
Who the hell do your think your are?
I dont know who your think you are.
And i dont really care too.
But please stop it.
&for those boliao ppl who really got nothing to do and think is them, go and dry your head and throw your brain into the toilet bowl la. Stupid freakos.
Reminds me, i gotta spam shuting back.
#801; pick yourself up
5:09 AM
Hey, pick yourself up.
I can assure you this happens to people all the time.
Everywhere :D
So just cause you fell once, just cause you were swore at once, just cause this happens this once, your going to fall on the floor and lie there?
For heavens sake, pick yourself up.
I wont be beaten that easily, I wont.
You wont too, just jiayous :D
cozillbehere.iwill.
Katharine Mcphee, Each other.
It's a chio song, even nicer lyrics;D
Shall take bits and pieces:D
.
I never thought that love
Could turn someone into a dreamer
For the first time in my life
I don't feel like a need a breather
Cause everywhere I'm gonna go
I wanna know you're gonna be there
.
When the harder times confront me
You always show me that you care
And I believe you are my rescue
When I see you right there
You are the hand that I reach for
When I don't want to be alone
You are the voice I hear at night
Lets me know I'll be alright
When I need a real good friend
Don't have to look far
You're the best
.
And some times in the past almost pulled us under
But we got through all that and it made us stronger
Through the good, through the bad
There just aint another
You're the best thing I have and we got each other
♥believemewhenisaythat.
Katharine Mcphee, CHIO SONGS :D :D
bye.if you think tht will bring me down,forget it, i wont be down just like that.try harder, PLEASE do.
Labels: each other
finale night, shopping trip
4:38 AM
The boy you never wanted just steals your heartI never saw it comin' 'til I fell so hardOhman, ytd was the family day camp :D
Well it was kinda cool luhs.
With all the retarded people there :D
Reached there at around 6+
Went retarded wif Alvina, Cheryl and Glen
We were like making so much noise, esp
ALVINA! :D
That retarded girl was screaming & shouting like the world was going to collapse.
Believe me, standing beside her can make you deaf.
Well, they were bbqing in the canteen.
&there was like all the smoke.
And i suddenly remembered
EVERYTHING about air pollution.
Which is like, damnit,
why now?
Me, Alvina, Jinni ate very little, but crapped alot :D
The performances was kinda
cool i guess.
Juwel is damn funny luhs, and Zhuting and MeiXuan damn cute :D
Alvina + Jinni + me are super noisy & crazy.
THe performances were cute, when it came to func turn, i just blurblur go up there and followed tenghui & Meixuan :X
I missed Doreeeen, when i saw her pic in the ppt thing, I suddenly, er
missed her alot.
my
IDOL =)
I will miss the functions seniors I guess.
Coz, after all, they were the ones who taught us and stuck with us.
♥Shopping today.
Stupid la. I only went shopping for the Shanghai trip.
Which is like.. uber sian-ness. :D
Splurged alot, but fun la.
I'd rather be out.. somewheeeere. :D
♥ 豆浆不可少油条i wont die, on the way. but at least this shanghai trip helped alot Labels: 豆浆不可少油条
i♥alvina
2:11 AM
Ohmans, people, remind me how much
i ♥ alvina like siao okaye!
heehees, the sick ppl with the fbts and functions tee! :D
i managed to
convince scare alvina away wif all my words
love ya alvinaaaaaa.x)
Read this from Nineteen Minutes.
guessthereisnomorelying.:D I shall end my post here.
allyouwanted,yougotit.A person's life is supposed to be like a DVD. you can see the version everyone sees or you can choose the director's cut- the way he wanted you to see it, before everything else got in the way.
There are menus, probably, so that you can strt at the good spots and not have to relive the bad ones. You can measure your life by the number of scenes you've survived, or the minutes you've been stuck there.
Probably, though, life is more like one of those dumb video surveillance tapes. Grainy, no matter how hard you stare at it, and looped: the same thing, over and over.
pissed
7:41 PM
Foto_Decadant is chio :D
.I didnt sleep at all last night.
Wonder why i spend so much time doing what i hate the most, being a middle person.
I really wonder why.
it relly sucks..Thanks Shuting for spamming my blog.
You are such a nice girl
not& i relli love you so much too!
NOT♥♥♥
.i heck what all of you bitches and bastards think alr :Dbackstabbing i can take, bitching i can take. really i can :D coz im really quite heck about all of you.but what i cant take is that maliciousness in yr character.especially some. (: YLY, i wrote it out. you pissed? well, go ahead.i shouldnt have been so naive. which is why i didnt regret it ytd.if you want me to tell the truth, i had alot of fun scolding you.wfuckinghell,ishouldntcareanymore.I QUIT. you happy? fuck fk fck fuck fk fck fuck fk fck fck fk fck fuck fk fck fuck fk fck fck fk fck fuck!shipei, i said buddybuddy x)
12:27 AM
This is damn hot. From Foto_Decadant. Chio man! i wnna fly, looking in your eyes. knowing i wont fall, coz your here to hold me tight
Im sick, nothing else to describe it. how lucky for me to get sick? Maybe i wont go to shanghai.. Dont know if my mum will let me go Family Day Camp.
i hope i get stomachflu..
I will just use it t clean the floor.
Its just quite useless. :D
whenforeverbecomesnever,
whenliesbecomethetruth,
willyoubecomemynever?
Mindchange
11:16 PM
i change my mind.
Dont matter akon
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you
Nobody wanna see us together
Nobody thought we'd last forever
I feel them hopin' and prayin
'Things between us don't get better
Men steady comin' after you
Women steady comin' after me
Seem like everybody wanna go for self
And don't wanna respect boundaries
Tellin' you all those lies
Just to get on your side
But I must admit there was a couple secretsI held inside
But just know that I tried
To always apologize
And I'ma have you first always in my heart
To keep you satisfied
Got every right to wanna leave
Got every right to wanna go
Got every right to hit the road
And never talk to me no more
You don't even have to call
Even check for me at all
Because the way I been actin' lately
Has been off the wall
Especially toward you
Puttin' girls before you
And they watchin' everything I been doin'
Just to hurt you
Most of it just ain't you
Ain't true
And they won't show you
How much of a queen you are to me
And why I love you baby
i made up my mind:D
justhopeimnottoolate.
hopethat*wontbethecauseanymore.
hopeicanhavethatfairytaleending.
Disappointment
10:37 PM
i am veri
tired. after backspacing and backspacing and all those sex websites popping up on my screen, i decided to type this. i heck care what people say about me already.
didnt i long ago :D
midyears have come out. basically i flunked everything, and after mugging for like.. approx 3days for geog, i got a pathetic 56. its not even an A1. the subj i was relying on so much, sucked like hell. :D
speechless.
as for my english, my best subj, i got damn low. a B leh. people look at my composition, they go oh pro leh pro leh. i was aiming for 27. :D and as for compre.. and the summary it completely dragged my marks down. if i count ca marks in (40%) i just get an A1.
i am so pro, i dont know how to describe myself anymore!maths, science, chinese flunked. i seemed so happy la. even sunli say, i not sad meh. of coz not. i must show people that im not sad, coz while other people are crying and crying, there i have to be acting happy.
spent the time talking mainly about shanghai. talk so many horror stories i rather fork out more money go some nicer place. still got homework. then got demerits. plus got my favourite teacher, luo lao shi going! (!) i will have so much fun. :D
disappointment, yet i cant show it.i dont want to be another one of the crying people.went 85 tdy. dick is so cute man. :D hahas. jiahao is retarded..
went home and cried.cried over eng.cried until i had no more tears. cant cry in school. have to cry at home. how pathetic.im so tired. please stop stop stop stop stop waking me up. all i need is a good night's sleep. just that. not that i dont want to help you. stop losing your temper when you talk. stop trying to hide. start tryig to talk sense. stop asking rhetorical qns. or stop askin ME.
coz i dont have th answers.我拿着你握过的伞想念你的手心
失去你的难过这次我不会带着走
那些欢笑那些拥抱
让我们这份爱走到哪里都有阳光
我到底失去了多少,连我都不知道。
Coz you dont care
7:26 PM
english sucked like shit man :D
Damn.
People keep thinking tht i write whoever is herself/himself.
Get a life please.
And use your brains, whats it for?
The Food fest thing was er okaye.
Our class used newspapers ^^
Well it pertained to the topic of naturelovers.
Heehee.
Yawnnnn.
Dont feel like posting anymore, library comp sucks anyw.
Council's havin a lot of camps, which i cant go.
Well, I really cant, coz of the dumb Shanghai trip.
Talking about it, i feel so uberbly sian.
:/
You just dont understand.
&i dont care anymore (:
You want t keep it at this distance?
Fine.
when everything just fell apart at the seams, you were there to piece it tgt.Now, i pick things up, by myself.
Loser
2:03 AM
Hey you, thanks for telling me not to be fucking emo, and to get a life.
I seriouslyappreciate it! :D
Yes, and meanwhile, i should give you some advice too.
tatoo the words "Loser" on your head.
It'll suit you, alot. Yes, i can see.
..Everyone's telling me to drop it, t stop being so pissed.
I've not gotten pissed like this in such a long time.
And believe me, this just kept happening, again and again.
And each time i told myself to drop it.
who's the intruder?i am.Labels: get a life please
Pissed
12:42 AM
/edit
Read this from Nineteen minutes, by Jodi Picoult.
Its damn nice :D
Nobody wants to admit to this, but bad things will keep on happening. Maybe thats because it's all a chain, and someone did the first bad thing, that led someone to do another bad thing and so on. You know, like that game where you whisper a sentence into someone's ear, and that person whispers it to someone else, and it all comes out wrong in the end.
But then again, maybe bad things happen because it's the only way we can keep remembering
what good is supposed to look like.
:D
Today was a day when i masked all my emotions.
Must say i did it so well, even Mr chan was fooled :D
everyone thought i was damn heck care. i am, happy?
Got back all my bad papers tdy
Heehee, was shocked to know i passd chinese, on the dot though.
I failed maths and science.
For science its kinda okaye, coz i din even revise, and i know it.
But, for maths, it was damn pissing lor.
Get tuition teacher also no use, maths still will fail (:
.
We watched army daze.
At first i thought its a damn funny movie.
But now i realise its just a crap movie lor.
Dotzzzz :D
.
Junni, do cheer up and stop crying :D
You've tried yr best alr alriteeeys.
.
If you want to shut me off because of results, hey, its perfectly fine with me.
Sure, it is
And as for some cb nb fker who tells me to stop being fucking emo, why dont you just go and die...
Yeah, you can. I also wont give a damn :D.
If you divide reality by expectations, you get happiness.
but if you invert it and divide expecations by reality, you get hope.
expectations must pertain to reality, and vice versa.
.
As nick says, friends give in to each other, they put their differences aside and talk about sex
:D
♥ random pics
3:26 AM
./editPictures really depict what one is thinking at times 8D
Deviatart is chio.
..Damn.
Sometimes, i just let things take control of me.
Bye.
Labels: pictures
At this point
2:57 AM
Thanks for doing what you had t do.
It really did help alot 8D
.
Wont say things between us changed much.
But it did change.
& thats what really matters :D
.
.
I hate it when glitttter sticks to me 8D
I hate glitter yup.
But i love glitter when it DONT stick to me.
Hahas, I guess I'm reallly making no sense here.
.
Turns out we're leaving on the 23th.
Faris told us ):
Then we arrive back on th 31st.
Well, i want $$ from my mother for shoppping! 8D
.
Thanks Shipei for buying my FBTs ♥!
First nice deed you did! :D
Thanks for admitting, it sure took lotsa courage. But, apologies and everything dont help at this stage.
Cant you see that, love?
Empty apologies help no more
2:21 AM
How to draw a Domokun! :D
Im like 8D over domokun, superrr cute.
Heehee.
.
.
Yawn.
Feeling so sian now.
Have been reading Wild Swans, its a beautiful book o! :D
Had lunch @ KFC wif mama.
It's mama's day and she's paying, i feel so bad :X
.
Speaking of mama's day, where's my present ehs?
Sheryl, Jinni!
You better produce a PRESENT!
Since im such a nice, spastic, cool mama :D
.
.
Reminds me, I'd better go pack my evrything for Shanghai trip.
Im sure to forget SOMETHING 8D
me & my stm again :D
.
Why doesnt this sound like a good thing to me?
Maybe im overly suspicious. :D
But this really dun sound like a good thing to me.
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.
♥ happy mama's day
8:08 PM
coz it dont really matter to me anymore
.
went shopping with my mother @ orchard ytd :D
bought a belt, for i dnowhat reason too 8D
its chio, but wait t see what i can pair it wif.
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8D going out wif mama again tdy.
to bugis. heehee, for all we knw, might meet the IPC :D
i neeeed flats, shirts, belts, jeans, skirts, bags, and a suitcase
O.o yeah i need a new one.
.
yawn, thanks to shipei ♥ for helping me buy my FBTs.
save me the trouble of going to simei there. (:
.
HAPPY MAMAs DAY :D
i shall wrap a pack of sanpads and give to wenqi mama. coz she demands present. well, it comes from the heart, do apprec it mama -smiles x)
.
i dont want to feel self-pity anymore. nor pity from others.am i really that cold?
hello xanga.
5:59 AM
5:20 AM
The footsteps that were next to me
have gone their separate ways
.
today was bloody boring. sports day? whatever la. intercca? even more whatevr. nothing happened in my cca, yawn. i spent my time talking t gracia, shuqing and shipei bout fashion. haha, stupid yes, but who really cares?
.
we had like 5 hours. i spent 5 hours rotting away. listening to music. reading books. when i could have been doing something more constructive? wtf.
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went tm t eat kf wth the same ppl. bbq melts is chio :D was interrupted had to rush back by my mother. fuck! well, if exams are over, what do you expect me to do. everyday go home? yeah, i admit im either going to 85 or tm. fine lor, i go home la. home isnt so bad anyw.
.
&you think i will back down la. cry and tell you im sorry. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me go. no way. you can go dream on. it wasnt even my fault. i didnt evn tell you i had dance t do, i have better things to do. this doesnt really matter much to me. you can excuse me out of everything, i dont particularly care la.
like its some big deal.
your a lousy excuse for a person you know that? YLY, please shut your bloody fucking mouth. i know our jealous, any stupid person can see that. i know you'll go by all the most descaipable ways to get what you want. i know. but i dont respect what you do. im not even going to put this in white, you dont deserve it. and please stop thinking you do. stop fooling yourself.
knnbccbfk
i realise why i like playing maple. & gaming. coz its fictional. a haven. people play for fun, i play for other shit reasons. haha.
leeway.
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
.
.
the word alone really doesnt strike a fear in me anymore.
not as it would. not at all
7:17 AM
i want to watch:
SPIDEY-3
PRICELESS
28DAYS LATER
;D
maybe one day someone true will come.someone who doesnt break my heart all the time,someone who isnt as unforgettable as you.
3:59 AM
but there'll be no more crying in the rain
coz im so over it.
shuting's skin. LOVE YOU ALOT OK MUACKSSSSSSS!
not. oh heehee i took out the picture.
sometimes i wish you were here, to help me.but i know that isnt going to come true ever.yr too wrapped up in yr own world, resultsit isnt going to happen.at the end of the day, im alone.
with that fake smile and fake mask.
maybe the day i decided t be an intovert was one of th best decisions i ever made.
it was. what happened to me?nipple godmother, grant me my wish ;D
3:05 AM
tell me im not alone, your still with me.
can you feel the cold tnight?nipple godmother today granted me my wish.
hahas, well maths was kinda shittish.
well i was thinking about my macs even before th paper ended ;D
&i was pretending to check & do it proprly coz sunli was glaring at me.
but nothing went in luhs.
why did you.english ytd was kinda easy.
well the vocab was, easier than th last.
hahas, and i finished checkin my paper and went to sleep.
&i slept leh, then sunli came and "wake up! check again!
you think your english so pro?"
hell pro-er than you right.
zz PEEEKPOCKETS? lol.
you have nothing better t do.whateverrrrr today went wif shuting, joan, hosy, ww, hongwen t tm.
waited at tm and me and shuting were so poor we had to share a macs meal
STUDENT MEAL SOMEMORE -.-
yawnnnnnnnn we tlked about l*njia* heehee.
discovered....... its still the same lor..
we were so dao mei to see someeee people, which was like haha crapz.
hongwen choked on her icecream, shuting siamed.
freak!went shopping, took neos.
th neo shop was damn crowded, i saw my mama wenqi.
so sad, th machine sure spoil whn see her face.
the neos were chio, F.U :D
fsoijoodiskknvcyu, unscramble.f*ckers united has got some new members!
th theory & practical teachrs- joan & wenwen.
th recruiting & promoting people - hosy & hongwn.
hahas! :D im goin to draggg my sunli in.
my beloveddddddd.
.hahas i had so much fun & exams are finally over.
im going for a moviemarathon.
spiderman3, 28days later, priceless.
x) ah shito. dont forget(:
i felt real wif the bballfamily(:
loves lots.
NOT shuting anw, haha her bskin is chio.
for the first time in five short months, i felt impossibly real. &i felt, sincere. time really passes very quickly. but day by day, i spend it. feeling fake. seems so long.when this road grows long, ill walk it with you.
coz yr the only other 1 who makes me feel real. ♥Labels: felt real for the first time in 5 months
7:16 AM
i did, i backstabbed them
L.Y.Lbut i just pulled the knives out of my back and gave it back to them. (:
just gave them back what is originally their anyw.
can you blame me?
oh go ahead, i really mind. NOT.
sweetener
11:24 PM
coz while lies & hiding are my artificial sweetener, you are the real sweet one.give me the taste of hope please.oh& jiaye is
HORNY! :/ tsktsk. :D
fuckers united(:
10:15 PM
goodbye to you?heyheys people.
msn, blogger and internet are screwed :/
papers were screwed too! :D
geographydid the qn on water, land, and global warming.
the water one was freakingly hard la.
land was okaye lor......
NOT&global warming was
easyyyyyy! (:
hahaha i dont regret learning that, like yea.
chineseit was screwed, simply put.
i was like reading the sentence over and over, and geog facts just kept going
!POP in my head, and nothing was going in.
so i just bochuply put down some crapshit answer.
i mean, i have to drop chinese anyw, my mother wants me to. :D
c'mon, even if i can like pass this exam, i wont for th rest.
well its not worth it, blame tht loony crazy person who went to set the paper;
GO AND DIE!
well, the sec3s in duno which class were making alot of noise.
there was even one going there and talking on the phone veryyy loudly.
it was irriting laaaa, dont do that next time (:
went to 85 wif shipei & shuqing & gracia.
:/ i was so nice to buy bubbletea for two slackers..
oh praise me mans.
had a longggg talk wif gracia.
somehow, it was supposed to be till
ONE FOURTY FIVE.
but we talked till three.
hahas thanks alot girll, seriously.
i went home & slacked, who cares about science anyw?
todaythe
F*CKERS manchester UNITED is created! :D
president- chowy
vicepresident- shuting
two only, so pathetic.. ):
we are looking for guys wif dicks 25 cm long!
&ballz must be twice the size of pingpong ball:D
bra cup size z for girls!
COME FOR REGISTRATION! :D
first 20 get a free elastic extendable dick! :D
heehee, well i screwed science.
i didnt learn too. im not taking triple science anw, ill probably faint EVERYDAY.
three sciences?! your kidding me man.
i cant even cope with one physics.
well, wait till bio! :D ill have lots of fun in practical and theory.
went 85 wif shipei & gracia.
i guess its english & there's no need to revise..
good..
youwouldnthavegone,ifitwasanythingelse,wouldyou.whatever.shipei went home wif jl.
finally drank milk tea!!! it was..
good.(:
workovereverything,asalways.whateverrrs.
well, i went to hail a taxi wif gracia.
&oh these whole bunch of girls from *
they were like "ehh! YO GIRL! HEY GIRL! GIRRRL!!!!"
and alot of vulgarities.
wtfwtcwttwtswth.
they freaked me out so much, i cried.
no i didnt :D
but i got gracia to drop me off as far away from them as possible..
who wnts to be near some
retarded stupid childish, dumb, retarded, crazy fuckers who call themselves people but are actually UFOs?NOT ME.
thanks alot graciaaaa, really ♥
why didnt brownian motion come out tdy?
im pro at that, in practical & theory... sad ):
there is more that meets the eye. im hiding more things than you know. somehow, its so hard to express my feelings. ♥ sorry
Labels: UFOs
12:55 AM
A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down.maybe you are right.
well, since when have you been wrong.
have i been hiding my feelings too much?this saturday, spiderman 3 (:
haha, looking frwrd to it.
i try and cover it up, with fake smiles and laughterbut behind that, there's a silent wall of emotions.
12:33 AM
aftr the rain, comes the rainbow.
where's mine.it disappeaed
im damn lame yes, but i dont care.
lols, anyw i gave up on revising chinese! :P
toohard, tooboring.
even though its my last chance, dont really bother anymore.
shipei's righttttttttt i've been slackin too much.
slackslackslack(:
wellllll chem, will become like th 2nd faris alriteeeey!
ill become a nerd, an introvert :P
i hate people who put studies above everthing. likeyou.
studies all day long.. go home and bury your head in a book and die.
cant pretend i wasnt angry at yr decision coz i was.
but if you want to do it yr way, ill follow.
coz i really dont care.
♥ So I tried to smile,and mean what i was trying to convey. but i just couldnt.
12:02 AM
just so you know, this feelings taking control.
of me.
i hav been mugging, no matter wht some people say okies :D I MUSTTT LEARN MY CHINESE WELL BEFORE I GO OFF AND WATCH WANG ZI BIAN QI WA. X_x im still like crazyyyy over that movie, must watch it. i keep forgetting the water chapter &damnit lor.. so i keep going back..
.
maths questions to improve your standard before this myes. can do means you pro lor, dunnid worry liao :D unlike me, cnt do T_T oh jeremie confirm cnt do de lor.. he these sort of things damn noob, need my help, im exprienced:D
1. a woman and 3 condoms cost $x for 1 night.given that a man books her for a weekand pays $29126, find X. find how much a condom costs, also make y a suject.
2. a lingerie shop sells a bra at $x, push up bra at $y. if bought together, they cost $666. the difference between them is $126. a woman bought a number of bras and pushup bras. she paid $99999. find x. find y. find the no. of bras and pushupbras she bought ;D
.
its solvable alright, and these are from hornyboi, hornydaughter and hornytudi (shipei). amens. well yeahhhh tuition was boring. the guy opposite me goes and pokes earholes by himself. then put some black straw in it. eeeeeeeew.have i got too used to hiding my feelings?
you know, ill be here with you. come escape with me ♥
8:56 PM
your my sweet escape.
salvations, mathswb, geog tb.
friday was a boringggg day, coz i missed gracia so much.
haha, gracia do be honoured?:D
it was kinda boring at th bac, till germaine joined me, &then it kinda got like i-miss-1F days again x)
i miss SHUTING :X omg.
science was boring, i always sleeeep during science.
mdm hidayah was kinda rushing, and well, it just couldnt get into my head.
cozyouwerethere,inmyhead.
i didnt do anything for science, coz germaine and me were talking.
we sure can talkkkkkk alot:D
fuck. * got me pissed.
well, yeah.
english was boring, reading some stupid thing.
acc, we watched some movie againnnn, which is like funnnn hahah.
germaine's really funny! :D
void.
i had alot of fun during recess, met wif hosy.
hosyyy ah, always kop my food o.o
den always talkin crap de lor.. :D
was down, during recess, it kinda cheerrrred me up.
chinese was boring, she was going on about some shit.
&there i was.. sleeping.
gracia smsed me a wrong message, and i hope yr happy girl(:
coz i tink you made the right decision.
went for music.
first tht miss lee said 5 mins, wich got extended to about 1/2 an hour.
anyw i hd fun, spinning and spinning around.
had alot of funnnnnn, especially wif my hornyboi.
x) and kevin damn retarded..
yeah, well we presented then zao le lor..
sorry
went to the library watched dick play some "porno" game
we were like making so much noise.
glen was playing some balloon game o.o
waiting for shipei to come.
went down to 85, aft tht went t starrrrbucks.
im a rich girl haha. no.
thanks ♥ yes 29126, bbc, jbp, whateverrr.
no, i dont really care.
think of me as whatever you want, i dont really care.
believe whatever you want, i dont care.
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
I found the sweetest salvation. And i've got you, thats all that matters now ♥
7:01 AM
舍不得不看你微笑
i shall continue my post.
inspiration to post after seeing wenqi's farnie post:D
acc was about watching some movie wif cute cartoon chars.
watched half of it, den daydreamed all the way through
it was so cute can, the romannntic love story ;D
reminded me of us. (: only not so drama la. but more fun, tgt.
english was boring lor, stupid summary.
yawns, my place at the back can do maths de ^^
mr chan is so proud of me.
thanks mama, for thinking im lonely. but i like it(:
ate wif shipei in canteen, for once not 85.
im so siaaaaaan of 85 liaos la.
saw a scaaadanlous couple, lol. i puked my lunch out..
I WANT TO BE SPAMMED.
wtfffffff.
how come glen & joseph can tio spam i cnt..
self-entertainment:D
i promise you i wont leave (:
do believe me when i say tht. coz i do. ♥
11:51 PM
exams are coming, haha retarded.
revise, revise and moreeee revise.
i feel bored, spastic, stupid.
gracia, do get well alrites(:
missed ya lotsssssssssss.
oh i screwed the chinese test by blanking out.
learning & blanking out, tell me what help tht is.
-.-
same for geog tests.
i got the
lowest for th test i
LEARNT, while i got
highest for the one i
DIDNT LEARN..
-.-
freeze the moment in time (:
coz im hoping it will.i just need that moment.
3:49 AM
another chiochio image from deviantart.
but someone sure say, zipai the nicest.. hais cmi cmi.. :D
lols, bt those look like two girls kissing.
les, ewwww?
whatever la... i only looking at th sky lor, not the kissing.
not.too innocent ^^
had starbucks again:D
i decided to be lame & take a picture.
surprisingly, today was safe & ok! :D
ahhh starbucks is cool, i like the frappucinos.. heehees.
yeah, loveeeeeeee starbucks!:D withyou,esp.
bye, mugging for chinese.
when our time is up, can we say that we've had our fun?
Labels: random(:
11:38 PM
Please allow me to say this,
fishball my dearest miss lee!
oh how much i love her (:
just coz she cant argue wif us,
she uses her position as a teacher to force us down.
&just says "oh, nvm" to end the matter.
oh, im so contented with an OH-NVM.
well, bloodycrap please.
currently, i think we might as well not even do the logicfund thing.
i shall be a nice girl, break down everything for you :D
-5 for not using logicfund
-5 for not presenting today
-1 for not presenting last week (whole class got)
if its upon 100, well WHO CARES seriously.
but the problem, the dear teeny weeny problem is its upon 20!!
do your maths.
in the end, we only have 9 marks left, max marks.
oh might as well NOT do.
&then even if we hand it up by tmrw,
we'll have max points of 14, which is a fucking 70%.
* urgh. THANKS MISS LEE.
&its nt tht we DIDNT want to do tdy!
we DID, we even said YES, we wanted t do.
but she ignored us and went on talking about PUNISHMENT.
*rollseyes*
bt in the end, after "she waited for us and in the end we didnt go" she gave the chance to faris's group.
BIASED BIASED BIASED!!!
true, me and jolyn were doing last minute preparations at the stupid keyboard.
but NANA AND SHIPEI RAISED THEIR HANDS AND SAID "YES WE ARE READY."
but of course, she'd just ignore it.
dont give me this bull seriously.
so after that, there was of course NO TIME, coz she had dragged.
we tried to argued.
she wanted to minus points becuz we din present tdy.
the period was over, it was something called TIME CONSTRAINT
but did she listen? NO she didnt even bother to. just, "OH NVM, just minus points.."
maybe for the logicfund if minus, can understand.
but FIVE MARKS?!?! thats like 25%!!!!!
&we (jolyn & me) lin3 shi2 thought of a melody to be played out on the piano.
it was coolcool:D
but of course, she still want t minus.
NO i dont see any point in presenting anymore.
minus lor. minus and minus until ZERO better.
than turn arund and go say "oh i shall give you a chance.. do my work hand in by blablabla time, and i shall n0t minus as many marks, yeah, i also dont want to fail you, not fair,notfair, BLABLABLA."
oh yes yr the saint can... ahhhhh go heaven go heaven byebye....
-.- hahas ignore tht thts cold.
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck. biased old freak! no wonder no boyfriend.. xP
so music was one of the WORST periods.
art was okaye since stupid neo just sit there mark paper :P
me & shipei finished the box, &we talked and talked.
yay thanks alot shipeiiiiiii:D
the start of the day, i went spreading the xiang jiao song around.
im so addddicted to tht song! &you(:
yups, mama laughed until her face red like tomato..
funny :D song funny, not mommy(:
hmms, maths was funnyy too.
mr chan is uberbly cute! ^^
he said gracia was on medicine, HAHA, which is true.
gracia got so freaked over a dead bug.. hais, cmi cmi..
she tried to kick it to eugeny (so evil) then tried to ick to the bin..
in the end, duno how, ended up back at her seat.
^^ so retardeddd.
oh shitto i died during chinese!
coz we were having spelling, wif 55 qns.
like omg and i failed.
ah shits ^^
did the logic fund.
died, damn shit.
went to 85 with shipei loves(:
i owe her alot of $$$$$ -.-
im a bitch, i admit.
i enjoy seeing people in distress,
i enjoy mocking people,
i enjoy doing everything sadistic & bitchy.
agree, i agreed longlong ago.
stay with me,
its you and me(:
i trust you more and more each day.Labels: pissed at biasedness
3:23 AM
Life is simple, its just not easy, and I hope life isn't a big joke, because I don't get it.
ahh i guess im too crazyyyy.
chinese&science, &application t geog.
how am i ever going to fucking get it done.
im emoshit emoshit & more emoshit.
but guess what, i dont need anyone to walk down this path with me.
simply coz,i can do it alone.
i will always love you(:
hope it doesnt end so soon.it wont:D
2:27 AM
everybody screammm your heart out.
dont give me empty promises,
i know you wont.dont tell me sweet lies,
i know you wont.coz in the end its still you & me.
sorry for everything i did in the past, sorry for cutting it off so suddenly last time.
when im emo, i dont care bout others, i just care bout telling it to you.i dont care what others say, you shouldnt too alrite.oh & youwere right about 29126 and ESB :D ahh shitos. i owe you bigtime for that(: <3
1:52 AM
cupid got me in a chokehold.
the slipped smile.heyhey :D
happylabourday yups.
its supposed to be a day where everyone rests, but here i am chionging out all my geog -.-
ahh shits but i feel
ACCOMPLISED(:
im finally done with all my geog!
school was shittish as usual.
went to 85 with shipei, shuqing & *.
i've gotten the xiang jiao song! :D
its so damn cool & horny & i love it man.
haha, had a fun day wif germaine & shuqing & shipei loves(:
ahh i declare i feel so DOTZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
after knowing tht.. i feel..
i feel like
puking up all my dinner. :D
*puke*puke*puke
i declare i'll never ever go to dhoby ghaut anymore.
TM is a muchmuch safer place(:
sorrysorry, shito.
i decided i wont give a damn though, hope you dont (x
coz you know ill be here(: ill be here. no mtter what * & * say, i dont care. im not going to give it up when its all just gotten tgtr.cheer up ill be here for you. x) after mids alrites.i feel so
LOL.
i think shipei feels lol too.
ah whatever, how funny, its so damn amusing.
[edit]o.o
im random.
randommmmmmmmmmmmm.
you got it all wrong. coz i dont care anymore. go get your treasure, go be a winner, i dont care. who cares bout * whn all i care about is ** -.-如果全世界我可以放弃,至少还有你。